nothing will be the same /now that You save me

>> Monday, December 12, 2005

LOL. LIFE IS PIMPIN MAN! GOD U RULE!

hahs i just came back from camp! its so unbelievable la.. its so fast!! tat always happens when ure enjoyin.. i took like 2 steps further now to God after camp. its seriously FUN, GREAT and definitely INSPIRING as i learnt many new things and had wonderful experiences which are unforgettable. ^^

ok be4 i go to tat, tuesday i went for training n den i and seniors went to suki sushi n i had a hell load of a good time. seriously. u gurls rock man! haha i laughed away like wad la.. try is very entertaining n her retardness amazes me alot as y is she not a blonde. haha..

poor amanda n jiahui who had to suffer the consequences of being sucky in the "macaroni" game and their forfeits really was gross.. we piled our leftovers n added stuff for them to eat.. haha i had alot of fun with them. marr stays as the queen of sarcasm la. haha i had lotsa fun honestly.

the honeydew ice blended which eileen had durin trainin had her grossin out coz she said it tasted like indian. the whole team went hysterical as as if she knows how a indian tastes like. haha i doubt her words but OH MI GOSH. IT DID TASTED LIKE INDIAN SIA. its like im inhalin through my mouth in front of an indian's armpit. shheeessshhh la.. the whole team almost puke la when they tried.

ya den i went for my angel's rehearsal. yay we completed the steps! wednesday was full dress and we had makeup n all on.. but they are light ones so it was alright. hehe.. BUT I COULDNT REMOVE THE LIPSTICK WHEN I REACH HOME. T.T.. den on thursday which was ST HILDA'S YOUTH CAMP PHUEMA THEOS 2005(yay!) the day which i was lookin forward to i reach there at 10.30 church coz i had 2nd in charge briefin. its my first church camp and im really thankful to have the church havin faith in me.

yep the briefin was great n prayer was awesome. den all the campers reached n we set off for joshua hall. man the FIRST DAY OF CAMP WAS AWESOME MAN! GREAT! normally camps first day whld be slow n borin n gruellin ice breakers but NOOOOOOO. church camp fired off the start great! haha we had great games and i had alot of fun with my grp. OUR GRP ROX TO THE CORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha my grp is Eirene ( irene- neeeeee)and i had the best leader, De rong who was really fun n great n caring n patient n lame n helpful. yay! im so lucky to have him. at first i tot my grp was borin, cannot make it, quiet n hard to handle ppl..but i was WRONG!!!!!!!!! haha.. ok except for justin. this little brat tat made me almost strangle him..

anyways we rock la. our grp which i believe had the most fun coz we are crazy (mainly me) n we had really lame de rong doin alot of lame stuff makin ppl laugh alot. first day one of the games was havin the grps to act out advertisements n haha my grp OBVIOUSLY did my fave one. hahahaha..

i played as jessica alba. mwahahahaha.. haha i can dream on of being the real her. she's soooo hot.

we had alot of fun. den the sessions. sermons. prayer. worship cannot be described. i laughed alot. i sang out loud. i opened my heart alot to God n most importantly i had the Holy Spirit movin arnd me all de time and i could totally feel it. ^^

James Singh the speaker was awesome. i really liked his sermons. thank God he preached for 3 days.. about total of 5 sessions? i dunno la but its AWESOME! i laughed alot n wad he said made total sense and all.. his great. durin prayer, he slain me n i felt extraordinary things and yep. best is i had a phophetic msg from God out of him. he placed his hands on my face n yelled and said " This girl has a burning sensation for God. a burning sensation for God. disciple her! the world will frumble at her every move. she will be a great servant of God." and others.. it really touched me alot n i cried like wad tat night..

it just felt awesome.. God talked to me and trust me. James Singh gave the msg to few ppl, only when the holy spirit talks to him. it felt great coz the most of his msg were to the leaders like Wendy, De rong n others but i actually got a call to!! hehe i feel really honoured to have God talkin to me. i love u Jesus!

2nd day ah walau.. games were NUTS man. the whole youth had injuries on their knees mostly n many scratches, cuts n abrasions. LOL.. we had wet/mud games tat day. it was AWESOME!!! we played wrestling on mats tat were flooded with soap n water and haha we had to push each other out the mat. i won this particular round. den the next rnd ALL the girls target me by pushin me off first. haha.. fun la.

den got this water bomb fight n this game which was the reason everyone had injuries. its like in the army where u had to crawl under the "fence" and all and yala. it was a race between the teams n u have to crawl under the rafa strings to get to the other end. as the venue was the field, alot of grass, thorns and twigs and all scratch us when we crawl quick to win.. haha pain la but.. fun man!

haha den walau one of the BEST fraud in de world. camp booklet said the next day shedule was this this that.. IN REAL FACT. ITS A LIEEEE. know why? at 2.30am, leaders are going to wake the campers n take them to the bus where they will realise tat they are gonna be havin games in pasir ris park. how cool is tat!! haha it was fun la in pasir ris park. we had the BEST moments there man! Eirene cracked everyone up man! we were like the worst, cheatin grp la! haha but its damn funny la!! haha.. we cheat but still lose.

well best moments. everyone was really sleepy and we reached back to the hostel at 6 plus. den we slept all de way to lunch at 2pm. haha.. den yala the sermons and all.. den the next day was the AMAZINGRACE! GOSH! i had one of the most tiring but fun race in my life man! it was simply GREAT. we ran alot la throughout the race. had alot of great times..

startin point was at parkway. jason n melvin came n joined my grp. the clues led us us to places like ntuc and we had to buy this ice cream n eat it before gettin next clue. den to the airport n there was a road block which two ppl had to count how many steps are there on the escalator at the mrt. WALAU.. haha me n austen were stumped man. den i saw melanie's method where she stood on the top and goin down the escalator she counts. haha i did tat and i guessed it correct! so it was a race back to our grp. haha..

it was a really close race where the teams keep hoping the other teams wont make it into the train or buses. haha damn funny la.. the clues were really hard n had to take a long time to decipher. but we got it correct n we had been consistent throughout the race. run like wad and remain in 2nd or 1st.. den it was off to tampiness mall's S11 and we had to find this stupid plague.

all 6 teams could not find it and were like.. AAARRRRGGGHHHH. team Agape found it and they went off first. walau.. but De rong found it too and we were behind them! den it was a race to the stadium where we had 3 tries to score against collin in soccer if not we will have to wait for 2 mins and counting for each person who miss. i scored at my first try den the rest kinda cant make it. my team had 13 ppl but good job! we had to wait for 10 mins.

times up and we went off. Agape had to wait 8 mins so it was really.. competitive. next was to find carol they all and apparently they were outside the mrt station. haha den the task is to have lunch n we only have an hour before gettin our next clue. den haha yala we had lunch and it was really refreshin n nice..

den we were off again. the next clue lead us to Suntec's Carrefour and when we reach, Agape just finished their task and rushin off to their next destination. it was so cool.. our grp, the one which other teams written off as we are like hopeless is one on one with another team for first place! the others had problems deciphering. clues were REALLY hard.

task was to buy any item tat make up to $37.23. haha we did it quite fast and when leavin, this stupid security held us up as we needed permission to take down the prices. WALAU we are in a race!! i keep tellin him to speak to carol as she is in charge n tat idiot doesnt seem to understand la. den finally we chld go n yala we ran as much as we chld to catch up with Agape.

MWAHAHAHAHAHA we caught up with them and just nice 14 came n both teams were in it. sheena's team just arrived when we were running off so it was definitely two horse race alrdy. us n agape. so exciting! haha meanwhile poor serena's team misinterpret the clue and went all the way to Orchard this restaurant and they were lost. den Anne called Ben and he told her where the right place was so nana's team rushed back to suntec. so poor thing!!!

so we n Agape reached the bus stop and made a dash for it. Agape ran off without 2 of their teammates and they were left behind with us. hahaha i kept them as hostages so they cant go far. WHO ASK THEM SO SELFISH N NV WAIT FOR THEM. our team leader De rong was great n made sure everyone is together. ^^ well our team got the detour first. "picture it" n "greet it". we took greet it as it has to translate "Merry Christmas" in tagalog and receive 10 thank you from the ppl. haha den both teams ran about la.. there were MANY phillipian maids arnd so we complete the task real quick. our team n Agape complete it at the same time and both ran to the mrt station. the error of the day.. the error of the whole race.. the costly error. HAIZZ..

we had to rush to paradiz centre and tot bus was faster so we went there. turns out tat its actually slower n de other team used mrt. we rushed back to the train n the train left alrdy n they were in it. HAIZZ.. den we quickly ran to paradiz still. my grp is great. we nv gave up. we kept havin hope. ^^ den aiya.. went to the mcdonald's and the arcade and we had to play Daytona n someone must get top 10 in de computer mode. haiyo.. Agape finished alrdy and set off.

when we finally complete it, i saw the route infor and it turns out tat OH NO. PIT STOP LIAO. NO MORE. the amzingrace's end. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH! den the whole team went wild and we ran like siao to church. we did not see Agape so i guess we lost it alrdy as the bus must have left. i called Danial and haha their team was sprintin to church as they are afraid we catch up. we were still in de bus la! haha yep so.. they won. =)

haha but our team was GREAT! we had alot of fun! everyone must have have tot we sucked but HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! we got 2nd! great. although we did not win the 500 dollars Heeren voucker but we had 40bucks Gelare voucher la.. and we going out tmr to enjoy. haha.. we waited very long for other teams to reach. nana team was 5th. yep yep it was fun.. very tiring but enjoyable man!

den tat night i had a talk with serena.. erm hope u dun mind me talkin bout our problem in my blog k? coz me n nana were havin this silent "problem".. after amazingrace was the last night in church. we went wild and all the girls literally danced to worship esp me. haha we did the kan kan n tango n others when singing God's songs.. haha it was great. we were all so ever ready to praise God..

den yala talkin bout nana. tat night all of us were gonna ton la as its the last night.. me n nana are in different groups. different sleeping rooms so time to talk to one another very little.. and i tried to make use of the little time but.. these kind of things are common when 2 frens are diff team so they hang out more with their on teams those kind..

i learn many things in camp. God and other values.. many things. and haha apparently how much nana means to me. coz now in secondary school.. in fact in everything, i dun like to stick to this specific grp or ppl as i dun wan ppl thing i am always hanging out with them so dun dare to make frens with me so i like to be "general" la.. no specific someone. except jo la as she in another school anyway..

i also very "traditional" la. if ure my fren, i will like u noe.. some ppl are bochap about their close frens whereas i like to maintain a very close relationship with them. i will do something la! haha den also im a girl la. girl dun take initialtive wad. we make ppl ask us first instead of us askin ppl. and i also dun like to keep my feelings to myself. if got problem i like to confront it instead of leaving it unsettled..

so yala me n nana the past few days like.. its like she has her own life n frens n so do i la. we are hangin out with our own grp, own dorm's girls.. den i feel kinda.. u noe.. sad la tat me n nana liddat. coz nana, ure a really really close fren to me. haha i didnt know you were la only durin this camp tat i realise i dun like u to "ignore" me coz u are a close fren to me. and so tat night when we -ton-ing i could not take it as nana "seemed" to be ignoring me or not acknowledgin my presence la.. i also did la coz its like.. i everytime make the first move den she nv make and also everytime see me just walk past.. so i also nv acknowledge her presence alrdy la since she liddat. den both of us nv talk n all..

i went to her room to tell her la.. after much "pluckin of courage" i told her "hey.. ya.. u know.. we are having this problem la.. and i know u understand things alot so u will know wad im talkin about when u think over it like when ure lying on de bed. so when u figured out these problem im referring, i just wanna tell u i did not want it this way." den nana was like oh shit n all n she wanted to go lie on de bed n i laugh n all la.. haha so i went out her room la..

where i sat with serene they all and kept talkin..but i could not stop thinkin bout the problem.so after some time i wrote a letter to nana.. coz i a bit shy to say face to face so i rather write it down and tats wad im doin now also la.. i wrote about tellin her not to worry too much bout it as its quite common to happen and said i did not want it tat way.

den just nice when i had to enter her room with suvie, she replied me the letter and said yeah she tot the problem was about it also tat we are not "communicatin enuff" and yep.. yala. i asked for a pen so i can reply den i tot it was ridiculous as she's only a few metres ahead of me n gonna sleep. so i went to her la.. after much "plucking of courage" again den i talked to her.. she looked at me quickly and smiled like she very nervous liddat tat i was walkin to her.

she was sleepin on the double deck bed and the on top one so my head was high enuff to lie on it where i rest my shoulder on it. i told her its ridiculous and explained la tat we r like havin own cliques n not talkin to one another n said how i feel n bla bla.. WOW im actually havin this kind of conversation with nana. haha well den yala i say i dun wan it tat way actually and bla bla.. she said she know n she's sorry if she did anythin coz she dun wan to disturb me n so she's like me.. not takin the first step to talk.

haha den we settled it n i said good nite and she gave a light peck on my forehead and yala! peace. den i wrote one last letter to her tat bottom line is tat she's my really close fren n i dun wan us to be frens of during "this time when we r together. i wanna be frens in all other times." i guess u guys get the picture.. haizz i feel so happy n relieved tat its settled. thought about it for some time also before finally paying attention to wad the guys n girls were sayin. went out the room and haha continued my -ton-ing. jeremy has been really sweet to me.. haha thank u! he made breakfast for me n treat me 2 cans of coffee! u rock!~

it was 5am n i felt like im doing totally nothing so i cant take it and haha i went to bed. morning wake up talked to the 2 edwins. haizz.. nana ah, she came out her room n walked with her roommates to the toilet n nv greet me when she walked past.. T.T DIDNT SHE REMEMBER OUR TALK YTY NIGHT and y is she ignorin me again!!!!!!!!! haha forgetit. den i wrote a letter sayin good mornin n put 2 packets of m&n chocs on her bed with the letter. den yala was worship and all..

last day so there was testimonies and all and prize giving.. AND OF COZ THE REVEALING OF ANGELS N MORTALS! OH MY GOD. I HAD THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE WHEN I KNOW WHO WAS MY ANGEL. T.T... omg. of all ppl. im fated to.. T.T. oh mi god. angels n mortals is this game where everyone has a angel n a mortal. i will pick a name from this lot n the name i got, tat person is my mortal. so as a angel, i have to treat my mortal well. like buyin gifts or writing letters of encouragement..yala. den my mortal was amanda loh, one of the leaders n WALAU. she damn smart la.. haizz..

angels cant reveal themselves and so angels will send messengers to past their gifs to the mortals. or put it in their sock. this year we had big boards where each person has a sock with their name hanging for their angel to put the gift. WALAU. i acted as my mortal's messenger la den amanda damn smart lA! she figured out alot of things tat im her angel in de end! shucks la!.. de thing is.. SHE KNEW IT ALL ALONG N WAS PLAYING ALONG TO ACT LIKE SHE DUNNO ANYTHING SO NOT TO SPOIL THE FUN. DEN I WAS BEHAVIN LIKE AN IDIOT AS THOUGH IM DAMN GOOD AT BLUFFING HER LA. T.T..

haizz forgetit.. GUESS WHO IS MY ANGEL. everyone was giggling and all tat when my angel is suppose to reveal him or herself. oh my gosh. i had a great shock. i nv expected it to be him.. on my first day of camp, i was EVERYONE'S MESSENGER. all had angels giving them gifts n all.. had letters but I DUN HAVE!!! T.T.. den 2nd day also!! den i complain about la. yell here n there to tell my angel to wake up. start workin. den i told the youth pastor la, Calvin. haha i keep complainin tat my angel sleepin la so must be a guy as he like bochap.

den Calvin everytime talk on stage will say "Will Rachel's angel wake up! she's expecting something! haiyo.." den haha true enuff, my sock had something the next moment! I WAS SOOOO DELIGHTED. T.T.. i kept yelling about. anyway everyone was nice to me. i had alot of volunteer angels who treat me well n gave me things. I LOVE U GUYS! so touched. all the fake angels gave me things..

den yala the next day i nv receive anythin again la. den i complain again den Calvin heard la n once again yell through the mike tat my angel is not workin. den yay!!! de next day i see my sock filled up with many things n i was so touched! and also other times la. soooo happy.. den Calvin one night told me tat

your angel says well done
me: huh? so my angel is a leader la!
cal: no. *looks arnd* i heard it somewher.
me: hmm..

den when it was time my angel revealed himself i was so nervous n did not dare to see who. everyone was like "CAN RACHEL"S ANGEL REVEAL HIMSELF!" and they all laugh like wad as they know who.. den.. CALVIN RAISED UP HIS HAND AND LAUGH ALOT LA! walau i screamed like wad sia.. i keep complaining bout him to Calvin la n IT TURNS OUT HIS MY ANGEL ACTUALLY!! haha.. i thank Calvin haha its really fun.

serena n this guy damn fated la. she is the angel of tat guy. he also is the angel of her. so they cross la! haha so fated. ok i wont say much.. LOL. den yala.. hahs. den testimonies la. calvin put the mike there n whoever wants to share walks up and just say. haha.. the first one to stand up is always the hardest. and.. i made the hardest easy la.. i went up and shared n thank many ppl.

den many others start coming n got this prize la for the grp who won de games n did well. Ed was like.. and the winner is.. i was lookin down la. i did not care coz it wont be us as we HAHA CHEATED in one game but gave lots of laughs to many ppl n 2nd in amazingrace but.. yala we felt tat we wont win la.. den i heard "Eirene!" and i look arnd coz i tot De rong call us to go out. den i saw jeremy jumping about and dats when i realise we WON!!!!!!!!! hahaha we rock man! we were so happy la..

there were lots of junk food for us sia! haha.. had so much fun. den yala it came to an end den my grp had a celebratin moment to eat the junk food.. after eating, i saw nana was just nice gonna go home.. i decided to walk with her so i chld talk to her n digest my food. haiyo tat girl ah..

i was like oie y u ignore me this morning den haha yala.. TAT conversation la. tat sensitive talk again. she explaining n i tell her its alright as its common but just wanna let her know i treasure our friendship. haha den yala.. so we had a nice talk n we reached her hs n i left la. yay i hope its settled for now.. shld have known dun give her the m&ns. haha jokin la!

this is a shoutout to u nana:
i alrdy explained to u la how it works.. what you are to me n how traditional i am. coz tat time me n ama were close.. n i did not realise i was tat close to her where wadever i do she did mind.. like not talkin to her n all.. and so there was once durin music lesson she teared and everyone was like wad happen n all.. den tats when i was shocked and learn a lesson la.. i felt bad n so.. yala i shld not treat ppl like im not impt to them so its ok..

tats y nana i have changed n became liddat la n im talkin to u about our friendship n all. haha hope u dun mind this other side of me n haha got anythin u wanna say or object or feel its not right about just tell me k. haha i know u not la. im just saying la! if u do feel. like im takin it too seriously or wad. but yala.. tats how me n jo are so close after so long! well im not askin u to MUST be the same but just. ure a really good fren. like how some of us found favor in God's eyes n God does alot for tat apple of His eye by givin him gifts or makin him happy n strength as God is with him.. ya im treatin u like tat coz u found favor in my eyes n i treat u as a real fren. like imee liddat.. i also will nv wanna lose someone like her. so.. =) love u too. and erm.. good frens forever. ^^ hahs so kiddo. well got anythin just say k? dun restrain coz i dun mind at all. uve been great. uve been fun n uve been lame. haha n tat spiced up my life! and yes.. u always are dying to hear this from me.. yes serena u rock. ^^ k see ya tmr

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