nothing will be the same /now that You save me

>> Tuesday, January 30, 2007

lol lots have happened. time to clarify

tag replies! :

to tryphoza: hey girl.. ya thx for the "encouragement" after proclaiming you rock. HAHA ya you guys do. hey thx for helping out in the shireen thing. the "SURPRISE BIRTHDAY" thing. haha its good to receive messages from u once awhile. hope to see you in 3 years then =) haha ya i dont have u on msn LOL. irony.

to m-chelle: go away girl. u broke my heart today in chinese lesson. LEAVE ME BE~ hahaha

to marr: ya still hanging on!

to darren: you monkey! haha

to mann: yea we fixed it on the 16th right? eh sorry but may change again coz i think i have plans on that day. will let u know okays. love u girl! thx for your concern

to syafiqah: i alrdy tagged your board saying that i can still remember vividly what you said so if u insist u did not so we leave it as it is. whatever it is i hope things are settled soon so we can move on. u are having a rough time in your blog too so whatever it is, take care.

to imee: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA coz there is the word nigger inside? lol.

to darren: forget about it darren.. thx though =)

to LOL: .. LOL. dont be so mean

to jason: thx for your concern too.. but why u talking like a gay boy? hahaha "mi". but dont worry. i try to settle it myself

to R: hello! haha welcome to my blog. sorry that u have to witness all these but u know life better than i do. haha see ya

to darren: hahahahahahaha TOO BAD.

thx for your concerns. really really greatly appreciate. i received some nice messages too that comforted my soul greatly after having such a rough time

imee messaged me something to show support in me with the netballers but i cant write it out. so i replied this

me:.. thx imee.:) really. at this point of time, im really in need of support for my actions. Thank you for making me feel supported. Take care dear.

then then on sunday after service, darren, jovin and i indulged in lan gaming and chicken rice at katong shopping centre with meeting de rong and others at plaza sing. we played alot in the arcade and me and darren had the time of our lives playing this "shoot spiders and bats" game where i screamed like siao each time i got injured. hahahaha

then we watched this show called Pan's Labyrinth. i never heard of the show before so i was rather "hmm" about it. haha but de rong was persistent about it and said it won some best foreign movie award and all therefore i decided to watch it over blood diamond as i trusted his taste that much. it was nc16 so only me and jovin didnt qualify. haha but we had the looks so we got in still. anyways we were hanging out with people alot older! suvie,sheena,jeremy,darren,jason and de rong. haha good enough.

the show.. how was it? .. WALAU ITS AWESOME OK. i believe its going to be my movie of the year alrdy for this year's annual awards. serious.. ITS AWESOME. i teared at the last part.. its a really good show and i just love the special effects of the show. its so real and good. awesome. really worth spending any amount on. PLEASE CATCH IT IF YOU ARE WATCHING A MOVIE ANYTIME SOON. my word is on it, if its not good, come looking after me for a refund. its that good.

anyways it was pretty late so sheena sent me home on a cab along with the two brothers. i appreciated it greatly so when i messaged her with thanks, she replied

sheena: no worries dear.. you are having a rough week and tomorrow also will be for you. but dont forget.. you're rachel, a fighter.

it touched my heart so much that i felt a surge to fight on. coz sheena, thank you so much for always believing in me. =) you are one of the best things God has ever sent.

yea i received alot other stuff from different people showing their care and concern and i love every single one of u. really do. but whats hurting is.. the people im "closest to".. the ones i see every day.. they kinda dont seem to care. are we used to each other's comfort that we tend to neglect it alrdy? like what i said to michelle today.. "we all have established a friendship.. that it reached to such a level that every praise seems like sarcasm." haha coz we are so close to one another that we dont exactly mind what was said.. but i feel that.. we no longer express our care anymore too. is that the case? i wonder..

anyways i had a ball of a time watching Singapore vs Malaysia semi finals on tv. after cell, sheena and i decided to abandon the plan of going national stadium to catch the match as we believed its sold out. so me, sheena, darren, jem and jovin decided to watch it at their own house. haha as in the seng's house. we had our dinner.. THEN we went to cold storage to buy more stuff. Lays, Rice ball with Peanut and Sesame stuffings in them, japanese nuggets and a Whole Ready-Made Chicken. the best combination ever haha..

we cook them all during the match and had so much fun changing shifts. sheena was the awesome host of being in the kitchen the whole while cooking for us and making my favourite rice balls. then we ate the cooked food on the table like a really happy family. joel came and joined us while we glued on to more action from the match. me and darren screamed like a bunch of monkeys, unable to keep our cool when Lionel Lewis slipped the ball off his hands and into the net.

the whole match we were making alot of noise until the seng's mother came home and was like

"why are you playing in my house?"

and we nervously replied that we were not playing but watching soccer. hahahahaha me and darren was so scared, we kept quiet and giggling throughout. got one point we were standing out, pulling our hair for a wasted opportunity by Indra as we did not want to make anymore noise, the seng's mother spoke to sheena while in her room and me and darren immediately sat down like some guilty kids about to be scolded. haha we were that afraid! so fun..

anyways life is up and down now. miss goh is starting to get really proud of me. which im enjoying every moment and motivating myself to continue to make her proud. i love mrs lai alot and so does she. im still hugging her 5 mins every day haha. but mrs lee hates me. HAHA she keeps throwing sarcastic remarks at me. the whole class can vouch. so does mr yong at times lol

social studies period

mr yong: i have friends who are brash and loud too.. like rachel.
me: did he say my name?
mr yong: yea i said rachel.
me: ok..
mr yong: but they are always the first ones to get married
(whole class goes ohhhhhhh.. hahaha)
me: haha ok..
daniel: ....... jason!
(the whole class roars)
me: WHAT. HIS MY BEST FRIEND LA.
mr yong: thats always where everything starts.

oh ya im the emcee for chinese new year concert. DONT WORRY im the english one. haha i will die trying to be the mandarin emcee. xiangluan is gonna emcee with me on stage which would be a cute sight as we are gonna do really stupid stuff. we are really fighting against the case of cheongsams to be worn and haha. ya.. oh ya im house captain for sultan shoal again. im so happy and honoured to be in it again. apparently i left an impression as one last year so they want me to continue this year. and im glad my speech to sultan shoal members had inspired people and they came talking to me with really really nice comments. thank you so much sec1s. and sec2s and some sec3s. haha

i enjoyed "dinner" with jason, melvin and chun tuan. had alot of laughs, mostly out of borat and teachers with hilarious antics. oh ya the badminton boys are doing well in their e-zone as they are in the top 8 alrdy so i wish them all the best! as for my e-zone, i just pray for the best. even though we lost to tampiness, i believe we can fight on and perform more stunning performances that surprised all our opponents and in the end bringing glory to ourselves. =) lets work hard for tmr's springfield match!

and so my life goes on with alot of stuff to work on. i hope the inner conflicts in netball will be solved. i hope the love will between me and my close friends will surface once more and i hope my walk with God finally takes shape again coz im alwas walking off the path many times. thx for bringing me back.

ps. haha i did some stuff to my blog. BUT I DUNNO HOW TO RESIZE. noob. i spent two hours once just to resize a photo. became the butt of ALL jokes when boon and marr heard of it. de rong in the end did it for me in 2 mins. im THAT pathetic. you guys be good and take care!

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