>> Friday, June 29, 2007

HAPPY BILE DAY! ( the following content may cause certain side effects like nausea, loss of appetite and permanent traumatising images for the next 5 mins upon reading)

i am one of the most depressed person currently living now. today is the annual road run at bedok reservoir and every year i will always take part in it.
sec 1: 6th
sec 2: 1st
sec 3: 4th
sec 4: absent.

i am uber depress now. because, i have been training for this year's road run. its my last year in bedok view and i miss that estactic feeling on getting first.

have you ever emerged victorious in something hard fought?

during sec 2, i was so paranoid thinking that elizabeth was in front of me the whole while and i was one of the last girls left so i kept running and running through that 4.3km circle. the moment i reached the finishing line, i was greeted by cheers and interviews (by the school newspaper la of course) and it was then realised i had just won the race. that feeling was undescribable. its one of the most treasured feeling i ever had.

therefore i was looking forward for today. i have been running in east coast park for the past two weeks and since yesterday morning, i was plagued with stomach flu. misery follows. (i am currently taking my medication and i just swallowed magnesium carbonate. as a chemist, i believe its alkaline to neutralise the acid in my body)

yesterday morning in the bus, i was uber dao. i could not bring myself to smile or talk to anyone i know. i just felt really weird. and so i skipped morning assembly and head to the toilet and just stared at the sink. in 10 secs, i see broccoli! semi-digested ones along with some grains of rice. YESTERDAY'S DINNER! wowwww, makes me hungry. T.T..

i guess i felt better after that, since i know what was bothering me the whole while after that exciting discovery. life goes on and then comes recess, i suddenly burped out something that smelt of half-digest food and when i approached the toilet, i knew what was coming.

"WHAM-BAM-ALAKAZAM!"

whoopee.. the whole sink was filled with WATER! and no no, it was GREEN! green precipitate is formed upon standing. and alongside with phlegm of cause. i could not believe that i just vomited out all the water i drank earlier on in the day. i skipped P.E. because mr azmi knows i'm running for road run thus he wanted me to rest for it and now.. GRRRRR.

life goes on yet again. i thought my sickness was merely because of my over-anxiety for the o' level chinese oral that was impending later that afternoon. i broke my fast early, apologising to God of cause because i feel weaker than usual and its not God's intention at all for me to faint. CHINESE ORAL WAS.. T.T depressing too. i believe i screwed up at my conversation yet again

examiner: ni ren wei zu wu qu de da ji chao shi shi hao de mah? qing ti chu ni de kan fa (do you think shopping malls built around hdb/residential areas is good? state your opinion)

me: STUNNED. (i didnt know what the question meant) dui bu qi, qing wen ni zhi de shi bu shi.. err.. hao xiang pasar malam huo carnival na yang? (sorry, do you mean it as.. err.. err.. like pasar malam or carnival?)

examiner: bu shi. shi xiang na zhong tampiness mall de, zai zu wu qu de fu qi suo kai de (no, its those like tampiness mall, built around housing areas)

me: oh! yuan lai shi na zhong. (oh! so its those type.. i smiled broadly to cover up my embarrassment. )

i so screwed it up. but i was not really bothered by it cause i alrdy felt lousy throughout the day so i cabbed home (first time in a long while) and slept all the way till 8. i ate cereal to make sure i get carbs for energy to prepare for road run after the obvious dehydration i suffered for the day and vomitted out everything i ate. after 30 mins, i went to the toilet and all i see in the sink once again is cereal. GROSS.

gor gor brought pork porridge for me and after eating it, i spent the time scraping the pork off the sink as it flowed out my stomach once again. THATS IT, i'm bullimic. in between watchin harry potter till prison break, i see my running to the toilet suddenly to either vomit out more bile/ shit out water / gag and gag and nothing comes out. WOW so fun. i lost a few gazillion calories by then. MY ROAD RUN T.T

i downed 5 capful of bo chai pills at one shot and slept, made one last final attempt to get well for road run by waking up at 4am to down another 2 more capful of bo chai. but when i wake up at 6, i was too weak to go to the toilet alrdy much less run a 4.3 km race so.. mission aborted. but whatever la.. dont care alrdy.. only consolation would be i can get to meet jeremy later since i have been too busy to meet up with him. sorry monkey

this blog entry made me run to the toilet 3 times and i will avoid telling graphical details. kenneth is the sweetest thing in my life

me: (looking depressed) kenneth.. i am very sad
ken: why?
me: jie jie today got running competition. (his eyes widens) can win big and tall trophy le.. then can give u when i win.. but now jie jie sick so cannot
ken: huhh..(face seriously sympathise with me)
me: can you give me a hug..
ken: (gives me a really nice good and tight hug and even pat my head and say) never mind la jie jie.. you drink more water, eat more food than next time you will win one.
me: =) (then he said something that left me pondering where did he get the from)
ken: dont go church and eat eat ah.. stay at home rest.
me: why u say i cannot go church?
ken: u always go there and eat alot ah. now u sick
me:!! (now to think of it, his right ah cause vast army is always us fattys pigging out during cell. haha and kenneth has seen that sight one too many)

i love kenneth so much la.

well whatever it is, i thank God for giving him to me. i will get over oral and road run in due time, looking at the trophies i alrdy have, i just need to thank God for giving me so much opportunities after all and i am indeed contented. since i alrdy had that estactic feeling before, i shall let this year's winner have a feel of it too. =) good luck to all.

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> Rachel Ng
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