nothing will be the same /now that You save me

>> Thursday, June 30, 2005

I heard you're doin' okay
But I want you to know
I'm addic-
I'm addicted to you

I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I try to make you happy
But you left anyway

haizz..its over. outta my life

status: chilling..
song of the moment: addicted by simple plan
fave person of the day: cat n king!
reason: today was SOOO fun with them
status on hw: cant be bothered
phrase of the day: good riddance..

waa..tired now..just went out with melvin n jason..3 of us only but still equally fun..its like holidays tat time..we always go home. but SOMEBODY zhong se qing you..haha btw MAYBELLY is BACKKKK! i noe u will read my blog so its a WARMY WELCOME HUGGY FOR U!!! haha we thought u got shot down over there while buying newspaper so u came back late..i wait at ur bus stop there u know..but nvm. not much things happen in school la..but still funn..on monday which was the first day..i hyper la den scream into everyone's ears greetings n huggies..den fun la dat day..i nv do ms heng's homework but she SHOOOO NICE as she nv scold me..^^ den yala..new time table and all and monday was assembly day and tat khairunan talked so much,tat i fall asleep and started cursing him when its over..haha literature was the one to break my record. on de FIRST day and FIRST lesson of literature, I SLEPT. T.T so fast..den OMG LA. my curse! my jynx! my extra extra great help to my insomia! MDM LIAN!!! AAHHHHHH THE GEOG TEACHER WHO CAUSED ALMOST EVERYONE IN THE LVL TO FAIL THEIR GEOG COZ OF HER BORING TEACHINGS!! AAAAAAAAHHHH sooo bad luck. T.T im gonna fail again..lucky history i nv get so bad..die la die la..i always sleep in her class one..HaIzZ..den after school i went out with the person who always shatters my heart. im not gonna talk to tat person anymore. i had enough of the lies tat person always says. we're over. oh ya! tat day got big big thing happen. tat night i talked to parents of the two guys..i heard so many shit on them saying its not them who stole my wallet..talked for like 3 hrs? haizz..all lies. i hope i can catch the thief quickly..
~ anyways ~
on tuesday it was funnn also. i dunno why la i always drag myself to school but i know i'll always enjoy it at the end of the day.. coz im always lame n there are other people in my class who ARE too. i deserve to be in tat class. haha the teachers rock..OH YA. MY D&T TEACHER IS A LADY. ALL OF US ARE LIKE...-HUH?- hahahah she quite fierce le..but its quite cool la..hehe what else..hmm..oh ya! after school there was netball. did not wanted to go but realise -none- of the sec 3 are coming as they just had camp so its only the lower sec and EILEEN. haha she's the only senior present. netball was almost cancelled but last minute 18 turned up. hehe NETBALL WAS A BLASSSSTTT!! SSOOOO FFUUNNN. thx to me. haha nola but it was damn shiok la..screaming here n there..so funnnn..we were like messing around and once again i was very playful. they keep pouring water on me suddenly and i just scream. walau so fun..the nafisah ah..walau..torturing my stomach sia..haha den the numbers game. WALAU. IM TOTALLY WHACKED. OMG. SOO FUNN. AAAHHH. HAHA MY TEAM LOST. BUT I DUN HAVE TO DO! HAHA COZ I DID LAST TRAINING LIAO. u noe the punishment word was mississippi and hahaha!!!!! i said "m..i..s..s..i..m..i.." I WAS REPEATING. AND THEY BELIEVE. AND THEY JUST DID THE WORD!!!! HAHAHAHA.. den they saw all of us laughing TERRIBLY hard tat they started to tickle me coz they knew i was bluffing. den i was like ok ok i serious liao. den when i said "p ", they were like " U THINK I STUPID AH? MISSISSIPPI IS B LA!" walau..i cannot talk after tat alrdy..my mouth numb..mississssibbi? hahaha..den yala..today is wednesday!
~ bowling ~
ya today was a blast too..so fun. i love to disturb my class..their reaction to it is SOO funny..haha den after school, it was actually me,mel,jason,mich,daryl,chun suppose to go bowling. den suddenly ah, lots cannot go den left me,jason n melvin. not tat tats a prob la..IT WAS SOOO FUNNN..dey damn lame!! haha we went sing ho,jason drop a whole cup of lime..HaIzZ..den bowling ah was the most..AUGH. my stomach wasnt spared again..haha melvin damn lucky n jason almost falled over when he bowled.. walau..buay tahan..den yala..tired la now..i bath at home den wanna use comp liao..haizz..k i gonna play cs liao..bye

10:10 AM
; always and forever.

>> Monday, June 27, 2005

status: yawning~ and doing hw.
song of the moment: demolition lovers by mcr
fave person of the day: donna
reason: we chat all night yty and broke 2am mark..
status on hw: rush rush RUSH!!
phrase of the day: dont spend too much time on a closed mouth.

im soo pissed now..the guys tat took one of my shoe and throw it downstairs my house are in my lan shop now..i stared at them n warned them like f dat they dare do anything n i will call de damn police..yty when i was going home i round one of my shoe downstairs my house and i was shock..den my boss later on call n tell me tat it was these group of kids dat wanna play around..one of them likes me wants my attention and im hating him to guts. i swear u know..i will bring him downstairs my house again and throw him in the dumpster..with his shoe off..chicken na bei..Augh. i sooo wanna beat them up..they actually went to my house and reach out for my shoe k..and left in downstairs..walau lucky i was there and i saw my shoe la..f f f..and chih bai one more thing. tat time me and my baby brother playing ps 2, my house electricity totally went off and i spent the next 20 mins finding what happened..bloody hell the switch outside my house was shut off. BY THEM AGAIN. f f f they just confess to me as the mastermind is not here. IM BLOODY PISS NOW LA. i just screamed at them..f f f crap. shit heads. nvm..yty night after going off,i talked to donna alot..all de way till 2am..den my mum came back and scolded me so i had to go..so..yala..sorry donna..she doze off right after we hang up..haha she must really be tired..den now im still sleepy too..working la..eating dinner with imee n sheaen..hope my darling JOOOOEEYY can join us when she reach singapore..hehe i love her. kays i go liao..buh bye

4:23 AM
; always and forever.

>> Sunday, June 26, 2005

tis goes to the person who had been heartless to all who cared for her.

we are the very hurt you sold
and what's the worst you take
from every heart you break
and like the blade you stain
well i've been holding on tonight

T.T u suck. u broke all our hearts. mine esp. i was devastated after hearing ur words. u have no sense of guilt nor shame in u. why do we still care so much bout u? u dun deserve it. like what others said, ure sick. mentally. get a grip. the booze and the piercings will just afflict more damage on u. but do u care? shld we care den? im trying. im trying to give up on u.

~ sad huh? ~
yep. someone broke my heart like shit yty. she broke me and shear's heart. not tat she cares. anyway i had lots of fun for the past few days but had a total shity day too. well on the 22nd i cant rmb what i did.. oh ya! i went mummy there and work..miserable 20 bucks..but im used to it..den reach home so bloody late..the next day got netball somemore. OH YA. FOR DE FIRST TIME. NETBALL WAS ACTUALLY FUN WITH THE SENIORS. haha in fact. there were not much seniors. -hint- hahaha. there was only mariam ( i keep threatening to send her to the maid agency if she bullies me), eileen (my idol who suddenly consistently act dao to me.) , shireen (my total target to bully as she always fall for my tricks) and suhara (keep screaming and laughing at my retardness) ! haha den there were like only 15 ppl there lor! miserable number! but very fun~~ haha i think its coz i was high on tat day den i keep laughing so its fun but others find it fun too for the first time coz -SHE- is not there! hahaha GREAT. *evil* no one likes her. we all think she whld spoil all de fun if she was there. anyway i was VERY high tat day..haha behaving totally NOT like a captain. i was den punished to do JACKPOT even though i win coz of my retardness. walau when we play the numbers game, after the team was selected, eileen shouted "WE ARE SO GONNA WIN!" HAHAHAHA. IN THE END. MY GROUP WON. 3 CHEERS! haha den me and shireen keep repeating what eileen said la..haha nvm. den after training, it was the FIRST TIME EVER we had went out with the seniors to eat. haha i wanted tau huey but dun have.. we went eastpoint the banquet there and laugh like idiot..esp me and shellyn. i was still ~high~ den mariam shared juicy gossips with us and shireen was making remarks out of it tat me and shellyn were like vomitting our food out of laughter..den after tat i went home and was really tired and my boss called to ask if i could take over for a few hours..i just take over lor..i was going out later to watch initial d..i wont comment more on what happened.. INITIAL D ROCKS. JAY CHOU IS SOOO CUTE but stiff.. AND EDISON!! AAAHHHH SOO SHUAI AND AAAAHHHH!!!
~ MOVIE MARATHON ~
haha well danial from church called to tell me there was a movie marathon going on the next day from 5.30 pm all de way to the next morning.. 24th. well on the 24th my maid was sick and i had to babysit my bro for a while while she gets well..tat morning i bath him and all and i was suppose to meet collin for lunch so i had no choice but to bring kenneth along..haha den while waiting for him, i met up with shiina and eunice first. they were with 2 girls called vicky and i dunno the other..den all of us talk la..den my bro was so shy he didnt wanted to talk at all..den finally collin came..we were at laksa stall btw..kenneth and collin gel so much so fast la..collin is childish and his a father and kenneth is a typical little brat..so they mix well. haha den kenneth liked collin alot..well we went back church and his was running about..eunice n col keep playing with him..col showed his latest movie..den i had to go to pp to buy shoe n contact lenses before the movie marathon as im meeting imee at 5. hehe i asked her to tag along..den just nice she was at church gate and apparently she was going to "study" with her school frens. den yala wanfong was there den hi and soon later bye..i brought kenneth off with me to pp. THEY WERE HAVING AN INSTANT LUCKY DRAW! I SPENT 90 BUCKS AND I WON A PEN AND 2 DOLLAR VOUCHER! haha lame..well fun la..den i buy my stuff alrdy den go home..left kenneth with my maid den i rode my bike back to church to meet up with imee again..then there were 3 guys..kenneth,cliffton and justin i think if tats their names..imee frens..den yala..they quite noisy..haha well i had fun there..den its time to have dinner den the whole church ppl went off for it..the tk ppl gone off alrdy..dinner liao den it was movie marathon! it was really nice to me. the first show was left behind. really nice. den it was 9pm so i had to send imee home which i really did. downstairs.. den i went off!
~ phone call ~
haha i called donna..we chat..before tat i alrdy called shearen house to see if shes back from indo..SHES BACK!!! AAAHHH! haha..but at the later time la..den all of us did conference with donna phone..i couldnt define their voice actually..we planned out todays activities which we didnt go as plan but watever..abby did join the conference but had to hang up soon when she was suppose to talk to yan ying..den..something happen between me and -her-..she broke my heart. anyways..cried like what yty night..whateva..we 3 still talked..until my bat no more..so i had to hang up..den i slept..crying..
~ today ~
today ROCKS TOTALLY. i had so much fun..well first todays outing was -ALMOST- cancelled..bloody hell..den master planner rachel planned something den we still went out..me,donna nad shearen went to pp for lunch..we shop around..brought op shirts and ate pastamania and had lotsa fun..coz i was ~high~.. den we went for the instand dip thing and i won A 2 DOLLAR VOUCHER. ^^ easily satisfied. shearen won NOTHING. well we went church after tat..i did lots of introing and all..den we played the never ending uno game which had lots of screamings and laughters..haha it was fun..den cell started..donna n shearen go shear's hs coz shear haven unpack..den cell was quite long today..we talked about like..fishing..haha den ok..JEREMY IS SO THICK SKIN. but nvm..heck. haha den finish alrdy donna and shearen was at 7-11 waiting for me and abby joined them..den they came to church where we played MORE -uno- and omg..it was really a blast..damn fun..i got sabo-ed. andy was DAMN cocky. he say he will surely win. but he lost 2 rounds consecutive..i screamed alot..anyways den we played the master game..so fun..den aaww..the fun just end..coz jeremy and jovin got to go..HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIINA BTW! AND JONATHAN! haha den me,abby,donna and sherry went to pp..donna cant join us for dinner so she went pp with us den went off..there was like a rock concert going on and it was quite cool..me, abby and shear had no place to eat and we finally ended up in the ramen place..not bad la the food..laugh alot..coz i mixed up marilyn MONROE with marilyn MANSOM. hahaha den we went to pee den the lucky dip again and abby got NOTHING. hahaha im sooo lucky..well the day ended..tats y im here. i love today. hehe well enough said. imee's waiting to read..hehe ciaos!

12:45 PM
; always and forever.

>> Wednesday, June 22, 2005

hey..this goes to weiling again. on ur blog u talked bout how much fun u have in thailand. im really happy for u..i hope u stay happy this way as well. as long as u dun do wrong stuff and all k? plz..go easy on the piercings and wines..take it as a request..well i wish u all de best alrights..take care n hope God whld still be with u..love u always. definitely. and always rmb us k.. u said this be4.

EVA
4
OF US

haha..kays..one thing tat has got off my chest is this weiling thing..she finally replied and all and thankfully, she's safe. hope shear n jo sees this..and what else..18th i worked..19th i worked..20th which was yty, i went out with imee to all sort of places..hahaha seriously. it was so last minute. i was gonna buy father's day gift for collin and my own father and i asked her out and she said ok as she was not gonna hang around with her mum's frens in orchard. haha so we went parkway first. she was gonna buy wanfong n nicole's bday prezzie but only have enough for nicole's one. anyways at parkway we walk around n i brought this "doll" which was like an old man with a t shirt tat says 'forty..the legend continues' haha and i brought it for my dad..at the same shop i brought this label pin the shape of a motorbike which looked like an earring which i found out later on for collin..haha his my god pa. well me n imee went to pastamania and ate our lunch. walau couldnt finish at all! T.T haha i ordered soup and garlic bread and my own spicy chicken which has peas and i added more tabasco and it was soo spicy tat i ate half only..
~ tobacco = tabasco? ~
ahaha after everything, we went to st hilda's for me to drop off collin's gift and i left it on his bike. THANK U IMEE for decoratin the card sooo nicely dat i wanna keep it for myself instead. hahas anyways at st hildas we went bonkers. imee said what "bla bla u add the tobacco and bla bla" and i was like "tobacco?" hahaha and we roared with laughter and many other things la..our brains were not functioning well and it was so funny and all..haha den both of us gonna take a taxi to ttsh coz i need to get my reading on my injection which proved NEGATIVE. haha im ok. well we were like staggering across the road sia..so tired and all..haha tat stupid imee. there was this free taxi and she screamed and said she almost wanted to throw me to the road to get the taxi..hahahaha..den we took the taxi over and met my bro, my maid n my sis. hahaha. imee doesnt like my sis. haha she once hung up on imee when she called me. so..i hate my sis too. but wateva..
~ novena square ~
walau. i asked the nurse wher is it and she said we could walk over and me n imee were like. "walk?" NOoooooooo..hahaha den me and imee HAD to walk over and there was like a big grass field next to novena and we decided to take the shortcut by crossing it. HAHAHA. i felt like i was in lost! we were again,staggering across..hahaha so funny its like whats two girls walking in the middle of a grass field for? haha den we finally made it and looked around for nicole's present..siao. novena square had like nothing? haizz den we decided to move on to orchard! gee..think about it. we walked non stop for like 5 hours? haizz..THANKS TO IMEE'S BIASNESS. T.T i wan my joeeey back so she can beat imee up for bullying me. T.T anyways we went to orchard. i kept squattin n sitting in the mrt coz i was soo tired and imee tot its unglam so she just cover me..hahaha reach orchard alrdy, the suffering begun. i called donna as the poor girl was grounded at home and boy was her father fierce..i described it as his gonna take his tennis raquet and choke me with it..haha den we proceeded the journey. T.T we went heeren first..debated over its pronounced as hee-rin or hee-..well..ren? but anyways. i dunno who won. haha walk around..we went 77th street and i bought some bling bling there..haha had a necklace which is diamond strudded and has a R there.. there was nothing for us to buy den we stop at 37 degrees and imee bought her first gift for nicole and tats a shirt of another colour but same design as what imee alrdy had. i also bought a shirt and im wearing it now. its so cute as it says "stress is when you wake up screaming and realise you have not fallen asleep yet." haha den we went off..went to far east which was really FAR. ahaha walau..T.T imee wanted to buy a pair of couple's ring with the name nicole n imee engraved on each so yes. we walked there. bloody hell then this woman came up to us asking for donations in a very rude manner and we were like take the money and go. walau den we realise we got cheated? the draw date for the prize was alrdy over and all..haizz wateva. den i bought a ring and we walked to far east. FINALLY. we reached and walked to the shop where the rings are and decided to walk somemore for more varieties and ended up going back there as there is nothing. T.T i hate u imee.
~ wisma atria! ~
den she bought the rings. and we HAD to go wisma to get the words engraved..T.T den we walked all de way back..den found the shop and got the words engraved. it was sooo cool! very nice the words. tats y i decided to buy a pair for me n joeeey also..hahah oops. shouldn't say it. wait till her bday..eh? i alrdy bought her a ring. but nvm..one more doesnt kill..well when its done. nicole's prezzie is done! den we went around wisma and looked for offers..hahaha coz imee just got another 50 bucks from her mum as a boost of energy while i worked for 2 days alrdy and had money..but nvm just walk around for clothes. den after wisma, we had nowhere to go. i asked imee wheres the place where u get teenagers clothes? bugis. T.T she said tat. and we WENT there. T.T haizz..she owe me 5 mins of sitting time..it was late but who cares. imee just had to go back by 9.. we went bugis and walked around the place den go edge. haha we tried out so stuff but didnt work out. haha den we decided to go home alrdy coz we're running out of steam to carry on this shopping thing..TIRED. T.T den seiyu was the finale and there was still nothing..haizz. den we walked to the bus stop and there was this erm place which has lots of stalls put up and me n imee just walk in to see..haha the shirts look ridiculous. tats y the prices are 6 for $9. gee.. den we decided to turn back and 197 just left! the driver didnt see us flagging! T.T den we went back to the stalls and bought pancake n drink..den back to the bus stop and it wasnt long after the next 197 came..we were in the bus talking and all and laughed like what..things like widya asked for 10 bucks from her dad and he screamed like as though she's pregnant..haha and others..well reach liao and i watched desperate housewives while havin my dinner. walau! dun hang out with george!! how could anyone hang out with any guy just liddat??? augh..THE BABY. NOOO WHY IS SHE PREGNANT? NOOO. BE JOHN'S!! ok.. its starting to sound like an soap opera. haha cant wait for next week's episode. well im workin now..im gonna be busy for the rest of the weeks. tag another time den..ciaoz

2:40 AM
; always and forever.

>> Sunday, June 19, 2005

status: uploading songs to my mp3
song of the moment: don't tell me by avril
fave person of the moment: lame king, cat n tsunamireason: had so much fun with them 2 days ago
phrase of the day: taiwanese guys are weird..

haizz..weiling still haven call..its ok..i'll wait..erm on de 15th i was at my mum's stall helping..nothing special..just work for FREE for my mum..T.T nvm..den de next day went out with lame cat,king n tsunami! haha so fun..walau had to wake up so early lor..coz kiasu cat wanna eat breakfast early..so we met at 10 in mcds..only 4 of us go out but just nice la..den we eat liao den go TM watch batman begins..haha the show quite nice le..jason say a bit sian coz batman alot of pose..hahaha soo funny sia he..den tat tsunami had to go back home early coz got what birthday party must go so left me,cat n king to go escape..walau quite boring le~! but quite fun to hang out with them. hahaha after the pirate ship ah..we a lil giddy den we take other rides..OMG. we went haunted house and it was like..WALAU! nothing came out but i just keep screaming n screaming coz i damn scared something pop out..walau i damn lame la during tat time..hahaha..tat stupid cat la..say what a hand will reach out and grab ur leg..siao and others..walau i sooo scared lor..cat damn brave le walau!! coz he go before liao but its a new path and he dunno where to go but he damn brave also le! he just walk walk walk and pull off the curtain n bla bla bla..walau i just keep holding on to him n close my eyes..haha so fun! but we waited dammnnn long..but i think. worth it? hahaha
~ sakura ~
haha finish liao den we go sakura and eat..walau laugh alot over there..and eat alot too. hahaha..den we left the place and took a bus back lor..chat chat chat all de way..hehe den quickly rush back to catch LOST. de first episode which i watched in jo's house was soo cool and all..these episode tat i watched was a lil..boring but its ok..haha den before tat donna called to explain why she nv reply me and all..haha GOOD girl. but she didnt call back. BAD girl. haha anyways yty i went for my last checkup..FINALLY. last injection and it was painful as usual but thankfully..its the last.haha well after tat i went swimming with my baby bro!! his sooo cute..we had so much fun! hehe den he is so eager to go next friday again..i promised him..anyways hols has been great. nxt wk maybe going out with mann..going out with cat n king again to buy school shoes..and of coz. wild wild wet with the tks! haha funnnnn..kays see u guys den. love ya! buh byes

4:54 AM
; always and forever.

>> Wednesday, June 15, 2005

status: laming with melvin
song of the moment: you know what they do to guys like us in prison by MCR
fave person of the moment: melvin lor..
reason: he damn lame
status on hols homework: did alot la..hahas
phrase of the day: hols homework suck!

haha i think hols has been great..WITHOUT JO. hahas first time i dun rmb her face le..its like..very bad la but who ask her..make me angry throughout..thanks to donna, i guess im starting to forget who is jo. haha nola not so bad..i just called her btw to her indo hs..she just broke my heart again. haizz..b i t c..nvm..heck her alrdy..yty me,abby,donna and imee went kbox and screamed our lungs out..soo much fun! haha like what abby said..its the first time we went out without the in betweens..haha it was great still..den we went parkway and all den i brought a new earphone! totally cool but it cost 18.90. its alright..haha btw abby broke my ear ring den she was like insisting on buying me a new one and im like.. NO NEED. haha anyways after everything,i got to go my mum's there..walau f sia. i just reach there and say hi and she started staring at me and SCREAMED at me k. walau! total bitch sia..go there help her and she say how dare i come so late. im like its only 4 and u close at 10? haizz..misery..T.T what a mum..den my dad ah..haizz..forgetit. i hate my family. cept my baby bro..haha anyways reach home liao den watched desperate housewives..donna called and we like talked till erm..cant rmb but it was quite late lor..second time in a row. haha den her mum sounded scary and was nagging at donna den donna had to hang up..haha den im workin now! so got cash when i go out with LAME king and cat n TSUNAMI! haha..kays see u guys when school reopens! oh ya, put on ur bikinis on the 25th kays! wild wild wet!!!

3:00 AM
; always and forever.

>> Monday, June 13, 2005

status: i dont know..
song of the moment: to the end by chemical romance
fave person of the moment: jo-eee
reason: i dunno..haha just love her.
phrase of the day: treasure your friends..

weiling..why you still haven call..haizz..i just tag her board..she hasn't replied..and theres this stupid anonymous who has been spamming weiling's board is getting really irritatin so i decided to scold her..now we 2 are having a war..bloody hell why wont ppl just leave others alone..haizz..i worked in my mum's stall yty..earned a miserable $60 for 3 days..walau if i work in my lan shop, i could get $120 instead sia..and without working tat hard. mum's stall there is hard work kays..den after working, my mum wanna go play jackpot den i follow la..i had a feeling on one of the machines den she let me play with $6 and i won $20. haha..i kept the 20 of coz..so tat makes it $80 for de day..still miserable. den i had another feeling on another machine..strong one. den my mum let me play with another $6 dollars..den i lost all..den she say tat machine wont win..so i just listen although i still had a feeling..den another guy came and used $10 on it and won de bloody jackpot with it. damn it sia..walau..T.T he bet 16cents and won 200 over dollars..T.T..my heart pain..my mum's one also..she was like "rachel,u shld have been more daring to ask me for money." den i just laugh it off..anyways..i working towards my goal on buying a new pair of school shoes..dunno what to buy le..so working now..hmm..i miss imee. but..time constrains..we cant meet. she has netball 3 times a week for 4 hrs..i have to work towards my goal..haizz..haha now donna is the one ive been talking to..well..i shall go den..nothing to say..buh byes

5:44 AM
; always and forever.

>> Saturday, June 11, 2005

status: chattin n msgin jo
song of the moment: yuan you hui by jay chou
fave person of the moment: donna
reason: shes very funny when imitating others
phrase of the day: chill out each day when ure young

heys..just got back..watched mr n mrs smith with abby n donna..that show totally rocked..soo cool and 'hot'..haha..earlier on when to fetch my darling jo and shearen..they are off to indo alrdy..so sad..jo's flight was earlier by an hour..haha i stayed over at jo's hs yty..so cool n fun..shearen too..walau sleep with shearen very what sia! she keep move here n there and got one point ah,LUCKILY i was awake. haha she suddenly rolled up herself with the blanket 3 of us were sharing and became a popiah with it. me n jo whld have shivered in cold! den i pulled off the blanket n put on jo too..i was sleeping in the middle n acted as blanket provider..well tat day was great..i spent my whole day dere then stayed for de night..totally cherished tat night..first time staying with my bestie..well den this morning wake up la..den i predicted everyone's future..haha it was so funny.. it goes like this --> shearen would be married to Ali Baba and they sell mutton satays as a living. abby will become a doctor healing pimples but she wont have much clients as people see her face and dont believe shes really able to heal pimples. haha imee will get married to a cow and everyday milk each other and happily for the rest of their lives. donna, the moment she removes her vraces,she would break the most number of french kissing records and finally settle down n be happy. jo will shave all her hair and become a nun. haha weiling..punishment for abandoning us and go thailand..she shall row a boat and sell fruits with her husband at chiang mai river everyday. haha.. for me. i'll just lead a normal life.
~ i love my friends ~
well i was very high yty..today also..any contact with water..im high. den we met abby,imee n donna at swensson and had fun there..den imee had to go so i walk her to taxi stand..den walk around looking for something to buy for jo but dun have..den we all take skytrain to terminal 2 and play play..den realise tat jo had to board the plane alrdy so we went..we went back terminal 1 and realised tat it was the last call for jo's plane! everyone ran like what liddat! haha.. i love her..den bye bye n all den yala..felt depressed. well den go viewing mall n wait quite a while before jo's plane started to take off..den it was shearen's turn to board so we sent her off n go back viewing mall..den abby n donna gonna watch mr n mrs smith and ask me to tag along..at first i dun want coz like extra..but den got forced into it so..ya..fun la hang out with those two..she damn siao..n i now den realised abby is a totally hardcore but good liar..lies to her mum like siao..and donna is not as innocent as she looks like. she was gettin horny in de cinema..haha..well so now im here..kays..done with my blog. talk to u another day..

please read my blog weiling..
call me.

12:50 PM
; always and forever.

>> Wednesday, June 08, 2005

WEILING. THIS MESSAGE IS FOR YOU K. PLEASE REPLY ME. SHEAREN HAS JUST TOLD ME EVERYTHING. WE ARE REALLY UPSET NOW. PLEASE TELL US WHERE YOU ARE AT LEAST. WHY DID U HAVE TO JUST LEAVE LIKE THAT? WHY? YOU CALL THIS OVER? YOU CALL THIS SEPERATION? NO ITS NOT.THATS WHAT YOU THINK. THE THING IS ALL OF US DONT FEEL THAT ITS OVER NOR SEPERATED. HOW COULD U DO THIS TO US? HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?? BY FIGHTING WITH ME BEFORE LEAVING SO THAT WE CAN MAKE A CLEAN BREAK? HOW COULD YOU?? YOU KNOW HOW HEARTBROKEN I AM NOW?? JO AND SHEAREN CRIED LIKE WHAT N I PUNCHED MY FISTS AGAINST THE WALL BLAMING MYSELF WHEN SHEAREN TOLD US. U THINK HIDING IN THAILAND IS GONNA HELP?? YOU THINK ESCAPING IS GONNA HELP?? IM NOT GONNA STOP U K..JUST TELL US THAT YOU'RE FINE. TAKE CARE N ALL..DONT FORGET. WE 3 ARE ALWAYS HERE. WE ARE LOOKING FOR YOU. T.T CALL ME..98322705.

T.T rmb the -her- i was talking about..it was weiling..we fought on the day she was leaving for thailand..no wonder..that day when shearen n jo they all returned..it was the 5th..shearen was gonna stay over in jo's hs n i was gonna meet them the next day..6th. tat morning i fought terribly with my mum..she hung up on me 5 times but i wasnt gonna avoid the problem so i keep callin her back but i couldnt take it on the 5th..she totally suck..anyways..i went jo hs early morning..spent my whole day..they were so delighted to see me.. so did i..they were soo nice. brought me souvenirs. imee my dearest ah gu shared one with shearen. thanks guys. i love you all. den rmb i said tat jo accused me of sumthing..ya..we decided to settle it n so we talked it out with shearen's presence..den weiling was involved actually. i told them my quarrel with her and hoped shearen could do something about it.. den shearen cried..T.T she said something thay stunned me n jo..
` T.T `
she said that weiling was gonna make a clean break with us and decided to hide in thailand with her friend as she doesnt want to be in singapore..so..it shocked me n jo..especially me..i was the one. i was the target. weiling knew how much we mean to each other..so she didnt tell me. she told shearen only. she knew tat i will do something about it so she didnt dare to tell me..instead. she wanted to make a clean break with me. what the hell? weiling i told u alrdy. ure part of my life. i'll keep looking for you no matter where you are. jo started crying too..i went to the toilet n cried my heart out..den went back to the room n started punching my fist against the wall. weiling why are u so cruel? how could u not tell me? do u know ur actions are affecting everyone of us now?? I WAS BLOODY HELL THE LAST ONE THAT TALKED TO YOU BEFORE YOU LEFT. AND IT WAS A FIGHT DAMN IT!! WHY DIDNT U TELL ME?? YOU WANNA KNOW HOW MUCH IM BLAMING MYSELF NOW?? HUH?? HOW COULD YOU??

...just..tell me where you are k..please read this..and to those who might know where weiling is..plz tell me k? thanks.. den..after crying..i wanted to go out again..haha the door knob was loose. all of us couldnt go out..jo,me n shearen were stucked in jo's room. we laughed alot on spending our life in that room..den had no choice but to ask her maid to hammer the door knob off the door..her maid damn power..knocked it off..but after a gruelling wait of an hour..we are finally free. haha i nv knew that a dining table would look so beautiful suddenly..we were out n we ate n all..watched divergence. IT ROCKS. DANIAL WU IS SOOO SHUAI. aaron kwok suddenly looks like a downright uncool despo jerk. haha paid millions to do tat role..den we watched tv and ate and bla bla..ya..i had a great time..coz i could see my darlings again..missed them so much..well..went home late..i am working now..earned 46 dollars today..this morning mum was gonna pick a fight but i dun care her..just dun fight back..let her repeat the words i hear everyday on me not helping her..ya whateva..ok i just wanna say i love you 4 k. imee,jo,shear n weiling.

i'm looking for my lost baby. can you all help me find her please? her name is weiling..

8:00 AM
; always and forever.

>> Sunday, June 05, 2005

status: working
song of the moment: lonely no more
fave person of the moment: hadi n jason
reason: they *rocked* up the chalet!
phrase of the day: 2e1 rox

IMMM BBAAACCCKKKK! MISS ME?? hahahas..just got back from the chalet. WOW. it was a BLAST! i had so much fun..laughed alot with my pals..damn they are bloody lame n funny. especially hadi n jason..walau! its so gonna be boring without them next time..lol really had sooo much pain out of laughing..3 days 2 nights. walau..pass so fast..damn fast over le..augh..sucks..for the first day which was barbecue night, we had so much fun! i laughed alot n the teachers totally rock! mrs tan,ms heng,ms leong,mdm teo n mr teo came n had so much fun! walau i cant believe it either.. ^^ ms heng so nice to me..^^ aaahhhh..i barbecuing den she like a big sister den talk to me n massage me..^^ aaahh i wish she was my sister..^^ aaahhh..haha so funny le the teachers..they brought lots of food for us too! den hadi n jason ah..walau..like brothers..keep making jokes n tat sinister laughter of theirs..omg creepy but damn hilarious..tat day was siao. need to do lots of things. den we had so much leftovers! lots of food in de fridge..n the ppl stayin over HAD to finish them up..haha den powerpuff girls had to leave early n yala..lots of things happened..lots of fun.
~ nIgHt TiMe ~
haizz.. we had to do it. every chalet stays definitely needs some excitement. and definitely haunted houses n ghost stories HAD to be involved..T.T i freaked out alot..tat night after bbq,we kept everything n discussed where to go..Red house is a famous deserted house as it is very dark. it is a private property. its creepy n its..u get the picture. anyways we decided to take a walk there to just see what it looks like..starting it wasnt TAT scary but at the ltr part, all of us were like freaking out..there were 11 of us tat first night. hadi went off with his friends for awhile. bin han,yu jun,daryl,jason,melvin,serena,xinyi,bao yue,ben,xiangluan and me went there..walau it was damn scary k..we walked along the road. to make it sound less scary, we called it a 'nightwalk'. den me n jason said we werent walking the way to Red house. its just a walk. but the fact was we ARE walking there. only me n jason knew. but i think the rest figured out we r going there..it was sooo spooky. everyone was like a lil scared and walkin in a slow pace. xinyi said lots of stuff like dun walk in threes or middle one will see the ghost n others..i tot of givin each person a number so we whld know if 1 person is missing but nana they all freaked out coz its like we will panic if we dun hear one number..anyways damn.it really sucks. we walked n its so creepy. serious. i was scared. the night was dark n theres only us. den the turning point was when i was walking..den suddenly my next step,it turned total darkness. very dark. only one lamppost to support liddat. den i immediately tell them to stop n say better not alrdy. den they all r cool with it coz they also feel eerie and we left the place..the thing is. we wasnt even near Red house! but it was total..creepiness.
~ sUpPeR ~
den we decided to do somethin lighthearted..we went to play bowling..play like siao..sfter tat decided to walk out of downtown east n go to the nearest hawker centre for supper. jason lead the way n we went there..hadi joined us by then n we ate lots..haha so much fun..bloody hadi..when i walk with him,he keep sayin scary stuff n i totally freaked out but he wont stop..den i decided to stop walkin with him. aughhhh..after supper,we went back to the chalet n all of us took a shower..shiok! after showerin,i and hadi walked to cheers which was like quite far to buy oolong tea. WALAU. IT SUCKS!! it was used as a forfeit in our games later on..WALAU. IT SUCKS LOTS K. I ALMOST VOMITED FROM DRINKING TOO MUCH. den buy alrdy we went back den started playing black jack..walau WHAT A NIGHT. in fact. i nv sleep at all tat day! all of us drank the bloody oolong tea n like wanna vomit sia..den it was 5 plus. melvin suggested to go watch the sunrise den all of us got excited n went lor. haha walau. SO MUCH FOR A SUNRISE. we went to the beach and walked endlessly coz we dunno where is the west! haha we just followed any light blindly..in de end we saw nothin..so go back lor..den some decided to sleep,some decided to gamble. i tried to sleep but it was impossible..serena's voice was too disturbin to make me sleep. haha so i went to gamble with them..play lots den all de way to 9 oclock..i prepared breakfast den eat lor..
~ 2nd day ~
hahaha! hadi was sleeping la den i decided to put toothpaste on his face n tat morning he was like "what de"..den he began laughin alot..i laughed like what too but quickly run away before he does anything..tat day was "slackier" of coz..den we didnt know where to go..bin han n yu jun had to go by 12..we went to the arcade den. mel,nana,xinyi,daryl n ben went to mcds for breakfast coz they didnt eat before tat instead..me,jason n hadi keep playing with the drum thingy..we wanted to play lan also..but the shop damn slack. nv open on time. so we kept playin arcade. den nana they all done with eating so came to find us..den we went mcds to eat while they go back to chalet n bath whateva..we eat finished den realised the lan shop was still closed den yu jun n bin han go off first lor..me n hadi went back to chalet..lol. they all were in the room slacking..wanna sleep liddat..we went there n slack too..walau hadi was OUT TO GET revenge. i so wanted to sleep den he keep going.."ahh rachel..chocolate dip ah..go sleep..please sleep..sleep Chinese,wake up Nigga..sleep rachel sleep.." haha he was scaring me tat he whld draw on my face also lor! i laughed alot n i know hadi whld mean what he say so i didnt dare to sleep at all..all of us chatted in de room..there were 9 on us left..xl had to go malaysia..den wati came n joined us..but all of us were dead beat by then n we slept instead..i slept for 2 hrs only sia..den we all wake up den i was soo thankful coz hadi also fall alseep so i was lucky tat my face was still in its original shape. hahas den we all went to food court to eat..wanted to go orchard n catch a midnight movie but we realised tat we were unable to make it for the last mrt train so we abandoned the idea..eat alrdy,we split to 2 groups. i went to lan with daryl,hadi n ben while the rest went bowling. THE LANING TOTALLY SUCKED THERE. IT SUCKED BIG TIME. ITS NOT ONLY EXPENSIVE,ITS BORING. i wasted my money on the damn thing k..walau it was the worst part of the chalet. definitely. den we went to the bowling alley to find the rest..den bowled too den we went back to the chalet..me,nana n mel went to cheers to buy lots of drinks sia! BUT. THIS TIME ITS DIFFERENT. we brought drinks tat looks awful to drink so ltr during the night we play games n used them as forfeit..walau what a blast. we buy den went back to the chalet.
~ bBq ~
we barbequed again the leftovers so as not to waste it..den we ate our dinner together..the chickens were great. we ate and then everyone went to bath n the moment of excitement came. all of us sat round the table n the different "tonic" drinks were in front of us..all of us played games n what de hell..I WAS THE BIG "WINNER" THAT DAY. I DRANKED BLOODY HELL 6 CUPS OF THE BLOODIED MIXED CONCOCTIONS TONIC DRINKS. omg..im thankful tat i didnt had diarrhoea. i lost badly sia..and the HERBAL TEA WAS AWFUL. really was on the verge of vomiting..walau.. den hadi n serena said things like feel like someones watching us n bla bla..everyone was sooo scared suddely. it was creepy in the hs suddenly n they wanted to play upstairs instead. but rejected by us who wanted to play downstairs. it WAS pretty scary but hu cares la..den hadi left the place to go with his frens awhile again den we went upstairs to chat..we talked lots la..it was so fun n energetic den slowly we were loss for words..i and bao yue was really scared coz the guys wanted to say ghost stories n we were alrdy imagining things..but i was like change the topic then everything ok alrdy..den one by one started to sleep..i was lying on the bed chatting with them den i suddenly dozed off. couldnt take it. they did not want to disturb me so nv wake me up..den tats how the last night ended..walau so fast lor..really did not wanted it to end..
~ tOdAy ~
today ah..walau all of us woke up damn late sia..suppose to check out at 10.30. we woke up at 10.10..walau all start to rush lor..but made it n check out at 10.45 which was alright..we den took a bus to pasir ris shopping centre n we ate there..den met rachyee n chun tuan at tampiness mall to catch madagascar..walau. BLOODY HELL THE PRICES INCREASE LIAO. WE PAID 9.50 EACH LOR. AUGGHHH.. and also. MADAGASCAR KINDA SUCK. haizz..i tot it was damn funny lor..but it was quite boring and the storyline was a lil..off? walau..only the penguins were cute. haha den we went to eat our lunch and hang around..walau we cant do much lor coz we were bringing big bags n stuff from the chalet n walking around..walau siao lor..den decided to go home lor..and here i am. i spent so much cash lor..desperately in need of money..so im here..anyways chalet totally rocked..did not wanted it to end..jo they all coming back tmr..dunno to rejoice or what..i was damn enthu last time. but jo recently accused me of sumthin she know nothing about n im totally disappointed in her now n the enthu i had in havin them back in singapore was gone..thanks to her. anyways im happy..the chalet totally rocked. really happy..praise the Lord. k i shall end..bye

9:45 AM
; always and forever.

>> Friday, June 03, 2005

status: confused..
fave song of the moment: im not okay..
fave person of the moment: no one..
reason: nvm..
phrase of the day: i hate my life..

well..today is the start of the long awaited and very excited for chalet..i just had to work for my mum for 2 days n she allowed me to stay overnight..alrights! haha love her sooo much. hehe. anyways i've been busy decoratin my photo album..its totally great! written lots of stuff for every photo. walau i forget tat i develope the pictures to be bigger than normal den my photo album couldnt take them! so i had to cut every single photo..T.T finally done with it..for de past few days i've also been shopping for a travelling bag with nana for the chalet..AAAAAAHHHHHHH I LOVE MY BAG. ITS PINK. ITS NEW BALANCE. ITS TOTALLY GREAT. haha and it was on offer! i love tampiness mall. anyways just yty the guys n me went shopping for today's bbq..so far so good. haha im meetin nana at 2 ltr so im workin to earn extra cash for the next 2 days activitis..
~ confused part now. ~
i was really happy for the past few days..its like..not alot of worries liddat..cept for de -her- thing..but today..jo msg me n told me a total diff story tat made me broke down in tears..she tot tat i was de one who started the fight..i dunno where she heard tat shit from but no. i had enough of always be the one givin in to -her-. and now to have my best fren sayin tat shit she thinks..T.T what a bad start to a sure enjoyable day..anyways i loved to pack..i love my bag. augh..its sooo nice. but damn heavy coz i squeezed lots of stuff inside..includin a mahjong set. hahaha..tonights bbq night whld be a bash! haha definitely. not sure if the teachers r coming but hope they will..den tmr dunno where we whld be going..BUT IM SERIOUS BOUT WHEN I SAY GO GEYLANG EAT BREAKFAST. IM SERIOUS. haha its gonnnnaaa bee sooo fuunnn! thinkin of it makes me so not wanna cry anymore..den 3rd day watch movie. ITS DE FIRST TIME IM ALLOWED TO STAY OVERNIGHT AT ANOTHER PERSON'S PLACE. OMG. FOR 2 NIGHTS! HAHAHAHA. i love my mummy...n my dad who gave me a miserable 30 bucks. but its ok..well thank u Lord for everything..kays..i shall go decorate my album again..ciaoz!

2:05 AM
; always and forever.

>> walk in the light

>> running after

>> how great is

>> look back

>> stand before You now

>> pictures!