happy birthday serena.
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>> Monday, April 16, 2007
to HELL with you sickos.
that bastard posted photos of us in bikinis into that unsightful site without any of our knowledge.
to HELL with you for grabbing unaware people's photos and doing whatever you want with them.
GRRRRRR.
anyways, fight club is awesome. best and most screwed up show ever. lol.
10:00 PM
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>> Tuesday, April 10, 2007
NEW PICS! lazy to resize though. haha
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>> Monday, April 09, 2007
i am sooo overwhelmed and touched now.
i never thought the day where my mum and dad can talk properly and nicely to one another would come..
i just overheard a conversation between my mum and dad on the phone with the loudspeaker regarding a female customer looking for my mum and the problems she had with some of the lights. then my dad was asking my mum about it and my mum explained everything to my dad and he was like "ehm.. oh.. orh.. ehm.. ok.." like his really listening and understanding and my mum was like talking really calmly to him.
i was just stunned but pretended to be doing my own stuff and all but deep inside i was crying of joy that the possibility of my parents being able to start behaving rational towards one another was growing. i dare not wish for too much, keep my hopes so alive of them loving one another but i just wish that my family will always be together and i never have to have a family thats seperated. whatever it is, God thanks for making this day possible anyways.
things are going damn funny today. i had a great "dinner" with my beloved friends aka xiangluan, rach, serena and michelle. enjoy every moment with them as we do stupid stuff, laugh at ridiculous things and most of all talk about everything that revolves round our lives and in school. hey girls i love every moment with you guys. even though its our last year together in one school, the memories will always stay close to my heart and we will always be friends!
today was napha 5 items test. not so bad after all and i am pretty much contented with everything.
last year's this year's
standing board jump 189 188 (GRR)
sit up 50 52 (YAY)
shuttle run 10.9 10.72 (OK)
sit and reach 56 57 (YAY)
incline pull up 26 29 (YAY)
not bad la. at least serena and i maintained our perfect 30. great job girls! i heard quite a number have outdone themselves too this year so keep it up! oh ya i realised i didnt blog about sports day.
SULTAN SHOAL WON ALL FOUR MAJOR TROPHIES AGAIN! =) and i had the honour to collect them as house captain which is something i feel very privilleged for. we won the house champion for 3 years in the running, most improved house for two years and best b'division champion and c'division champion for 3 years in the running including this year too. it was an awesome time and i am sooooooo proud of my house on the good job they have done. good job people! serena and her cheerleaders were the cheerleading champions and i am also very proud of her regardless of the different house. she put in alot of effort so she deserved it. walau then some sore loser wrote in her blog that "raffles won because of some guys throwing them around thats all". so ridiculous..
yea life's good. pray that my studies picks up. pray that my family picks up. pray that God will always show his everlasting love even to those who walk away from him. =) take care all!
6:57 PM
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>> Sunday, April 08, 2007
hello people! i decided to give up on the upcoming mid years too therefore im blogging!
NOT.
haha i decided to blog coz of xinyi (yes u had that big of an impact) and to idiots like darren and the rest who wants to see me talking about them and how much fun we had. haha
DADDY IS COMING BACK FROM THAILAND! i bet he will never expect this side of me. im always the dao daughter at home like "yo dad" and go bath and mind my own business. he might be surprised to see that i actually missed him. Hmmmmmm God works in his own miraculous ways.
today is the THANK YOU POST.
oh ya. news flash ! im back on track with God once again. i realised how unreasonable and unfair i was to Him all these while and finally came to my senses on opening up to him. we humans are always skeptical, asking for it yet not believing it will happen. whats the use of asking then?
like that once i was sitting at the bus stop waiting for 31, which usually takes donkey years to come and i will just pray like "Oh God.. let 31 come now please.. " and when is does not come, i will be like "haha i knew it. expected though".. its the behaviour of some people who pray for the sake of giving false assurance to themself temporary before blaming it on something else when it does not turn out the way it should be.
another behaviour is that you will be like "Oh God.. please please let 31 come now" and then that very moment 31 comes and you will be like "oh.. coincidence." and think nothing about it. WHAT THE HELL. you ask for it and when you get it, you didnt believe you could get it that easy. But our faith is THAT easy. believe people believe! i was that skeptical of a person. i asked God for stuff and when i dont get it, i will be like gloating on how sensible i was to know that things dont just happen and how God does not seem to work. and yet when things do, we will just shoot them down, degrade the nature and wonder of what has happened as we refuse to believe that something that should not be happening, just like that would happen.
yea so i thought about it in the bus. those two scenarios did occur. me going "HAHA I KNEW IT" and "ITS A COINCIDENCE LA" made me realise how unfair i was to God and understood that many people have that mindset too. something as small as waiting for the bus is important too as it slowly builds up someone's foundation. and so i decided to be fair for once, opened up my heart and acknowledge that God indeed sent the bus right on the spot when i prayed to prove a point. and im glad i snapped out of it.
and also temasek match! MY GOSH. WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF BEDOK VIEW WINNING TEMASEK SECONDARY AGAIN, BY A ONE GOAL LEAD?
i was praying and praying that we win. but if we manage to win them by one goal again, just like how we won them in the east zones, then i will bow down before Him and truly hail Him as king as the possibilities of winning them or getting a score difference of one goal is very small and we DID IT AGAIN AGAINST TEMASEK. the look on their faces.. priceless.
glory to you God.
next that night i was out late with darren. just chilling and me playing on his skateboard outside asteroids and mummy called. i was like shaking my phone around contemplating whether to answer or not. then i said " Oh Lord give me strength " and i answer the phone. the conversation goes like this
me: hello..
kenneth: rachel jie jie! where are you!
me: im outside.. why..
kenneth: so late already never come home
*mum whispering words on what to say to him
me: im coming home soon la..
*kenneth pushes the phone to mum
mum: rachel ni zai na li (rachel where are you)
me: wo xian zai zai katong chi xiao ye. chi wan jiu hui jia (im in katong right now having supper. will be going home when im done)
mum: orh ok. zhao dian hui jia (oh ok. come home early)
me:oh ok bye bye..
stares at darren in a bewildered manner. i told him what happened and he was like
darren: call your mum back and ask WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO MY MOTHER
and i started to praise God once again. we should always learn not to ask so much. i really feel lighter and unburdened now that i stop questioning and doubting his powers. leaving it as it is and that He has done it makes me feel a lot better and more relaxed that im no longer fighting against my heart whether are we just hallucinating and lying to ourselves that a spiritual force is actually helping us. haha i hope these encourage all those whose hearts are cold.
anyways life has been good. has its ups and downs. downs definitely being the lack of time and discipline i have in focusing on my studies. im trying but i think its not good enough if i really wanna do well for my o's. but im very thankful to all those who have been very encouraging. people like michelle definitely. and also rach yee and xiangluan and dearest ms heng. jason also has been sweet and many others that help to pull me through. like during social studies period, i try to not get so affected by mr yong's personal attacks and im glad that grace and hanis was encouraging me throughout to ignore him and prove him wrong. thanks to fadhli for being such a serious teacher when needed. thanks to fiona and yeon ju offering your help to me whenever im im having any difficulties in maths. thx to kiat huei who never fails to wake me up when i was asleep in ms goh's chemistry class.
THANKS TO MDM YANI FOR BEING SUCH A CONCERNING AND LOVING TEACHER/MOTHERLY FIGURE in netball to me that it was very very sweet to hear such advises and positive comments from a very serious teacher in school yet very funny and sweet when talking to us. and also the most touching one i ever got was mdm teo walking to my table and said that "xiu zi, wo men yi qi chuang zhao ge qi ji hao ma? wo zhi dao ni xing de." (rachel, lets create a miracle together ok? i know you can do it" and handed me my chinese mock test paper which i got a A2. i was just shocked. coz im in the last class of chinese where everyone should be aiming for a B in chinese for their o's. thx mdm teo. and from there we took another mock test paper and when i was done, i handed the paper to her and "hen ren zhen. hen hao xiu zi. ni de tai du gai bian le hen duo. ni xing de. wo men yi qi chuang zhao qi ji ba"(very serious. very good rachel. your attitude has changed alot. you can do it. lets create a miracle then.) was her parting words to me. i got a boost in my life.
so i will try la. even if it means im gonna disturb michelle for the rest of her life by studying in bayshore. bwahaha coz i really wanna do well and not regret that i will just cry all day long when i get my results that all my haard work has been paid off. jia you.
i wrote the whole netball team notes on the notice board as encouragements. i teared after the chong boon match that after 7 years of commitment to the sport i love so much, it was my last competitive match as i will not take up netball as a cca anymore again. stepping down and concentrating in my o's, netball will be cast aside and i was just sad to think that i will not be playing it anymore. in a sense that i will be playing in competitions and actually fighting for a goal. and so i hope the girls will enjoy themselves, cherish the time they had in playing the sport and all the best for their life ahead. as how my seniors have always motivated me, i shall do the same to the ones followed by me and instructed zhao ying to continue the good job that has been past down from generations and to keep the netball spirit alive. i wish you girls all the best
haha okies for something lighthearted, i watched "Meet the robinsons" today! it was good la but haha i slept for 5 mins coz the middle part of the show was pretty boring. but it was a funny show la i laughed out loud many times..
3 shows that are definitely making the mark for my annual awards for movies. Pan's labyrinth, Protege and Loving Annabelle. yea this shows were great.
de rong, jeremy, darren and i went to tampiness after the church today as rong was very secretly and discreetly psy-ching us to go and we finally decided. then it came to us as a very pleasant surprise that de rong had his stylo milo van with him today so he was driving us there. what an awesome road trip. we just screamed around, trying to distract him as he damn "stressed-outly" paid all his attention to driving than us.
we were at the mrt and rong and i were talking then he just walked towards a magazine stand that had prominently men's magazine in them and i thought rong was gonna grab one of them. then he bent down and reached for this magazine at the corner and got the " PCGAMERS" mag and i was like "WHAT!"
me: walau rong are you a man?
rong: what are you talking about *browsing through the mag*
me: i thought you were gonna take the FHM or something sia.. rong are you a man? you took PCGAMERS!
*rong ignores me and pretends he didnt hear it
me:...... eh you dont watch porn ah?
rong immediately whacks my head with the mag and says WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT and i just went hahaha.
yea life's funny. oh ya, SHEENA YOU ROCK MY LIFE. you are one of the angels that God sent for me to overcome the obstacles in my life. i truly and deeply am thankful for everything and Vast Army loves you to max.
lastly, to you.
your identity is kept unknown all these while so as to be protected. you know very well that you are my closest friend and one that i shares all my secrets and insides with. and i for one, knows for sure too that i am your most trusted and closest friend too the day when you let out the BIGGEST secret of your life to me and confided in me ever since. it took me quite a while to get my head straight and to comprehend what was going on but im glad i did not just push you aside. im glad that i handled the situation as matured as possible and that this HUGE step taken by me paid off so much that i had found myself a confidante, one that i will never find again. you have been great and i accepted you for who you are ever since. i have understood your actions and reasons but although i do not approve of it, im glad that at least it does not come in between our friendship that much as you are truly a good friend. and so whatever it is, as long as we are honest to one another still, this friendship will go a long way and i promise it will be treasured. =)
taggies:
ok there's alot as since my blog was dead for a period. and so i might skip some
to xinyi : thx for the nice words. you are officially the nicest tagger i have in my blog haha. but really, thx.
to darren: OK MONKEY.
to marr: ITS APRIL ALREADY LA. WHEN ARE WE GONNA CELEBRATE EILEEN AND MY BIRTHDAY? monkeys. but i miss you too haha
to de rong: haha yes my favourite geek.
to jason: why were YOU NOT in school too?
to Joe: who the hell are you?
to aisyah : hey you keep pushing ok! you can DOOOOOO IT!
to mann: imy too! be good ah.
to shireen: OMG YOU ARE ALIVE. haha i never heard from you ever since your birthday la stupid monkey. birthday celebrated so run away la! haha thanks for the luck anyways.
7:48 PM
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>> Tuesday, April 03, 2007
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DPwo7TDizCE
this is an awesome Christian song intro-ed to me by Grace. its so heartfelt and good. Praise God =)
8:37 PM
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