lol lots have happened. time to clarify
tag replies! :
to tryphoza: hey girl.. ya thx for the "encouragement" after proclaiming you rock. HAHA ya you guys do. hey thx for helping out in the shireen thing. the "SURPRISE BIRTHDAY" thing. haha its good to receive messages from u once awhile. hope to see you in 3 years then =) haha ya i dont have u on msn LOL. irony.
to m-chelle: go away girl. u broke my heart today in chinese lesson. LEAVE ME BE~ hahaha
to marr: ya still hanging on!
to darren: you monkey! haha
to mann: yea we fixed it on the 16th right? eh sorry but may change again coz i think i have plans on that day. will let u know okays. love u girl! thx for your concern
to syafiqah: i alrdy tagged your board saying that i can still remember vividly what you said so if u insist u did not so we leave it as it is. whatever it is i hope things are settled soon so we can move on. u are having a rough time in your blog too so whatever it is, take care.
to imee: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA coz there is the word nigger inside? lol.
to darren: forget about it darren.. thx though =)
to LOL: .. LOL. dont be so mean
to jason: thx for your concern too.. but why u talking like a gay boy? hahaha "mi". but dont worry. i try to settle it myself
to R: hello! haha welcome to my blog. sorry that u have to witness all these but u know life better than i do. haha see ya
to darren: hahahahahahaha TOO BAD.
thx for your concerns. really really greatly appreciate. i received some nice messages too that comforted my soul greatly after having such a rough time
imee messaged me something to show support in me with the netballers but i cant write it out. so i replied this
me:.. thx imee.:) really. at this point of time, im really in need of support for my actions. Thank you for making me feel supported. Take care dear.
then then on sunday after service, darren, jovin and i indulged in lan gaming and chicken rice at katong shopping centre with meeting de rong and others at plaza sing. we played alot in the arcade and me and darren had the time of our lives playing this "shoot spiders and bats" game where i screamed like siao each time i got injured. hahahaha
then we watched this show called Pan's Labyrinth. i never heard of the show before so i was rather "hmm" about it. haha but de rong was persistent about it and said it won some best foreign movie award and all therefore i decided to watch it over blood diamond as i trusted his taste that much. it was nc16 so only me and jovin didnt qualify. haha but we had the looks so we got in still. anyways we were hanging out with people alot older! suvie,sheena,jeremy,darren,jason and de rong. haha good enough.
the show.. how was it? .. WALAU ITS AWESOME OK. i believe its going to be my movie of the year alrdy for this year's annual awards. serious.. ITS AWESOME. i teared at the last part.. its a really good show and i just love the special effects of the show. its so real and good. awesome. really worth spending any amount on. PLEASE CATCH IT IF YOU ARE WATCHING A MOVIE ANYTIME SOON. my word is on it, if its not good, come looking after me for a refund. its that good.
anyways it was pretty late so sheena sent me home on a cab along with the two brothers. i appreciated it greatly so when i messaged her with thanks, she replied
sheena: no worries dear.. you are having a rough week and tomorrow also will be for you. but dont forget.. you're rachel, a fighter.
it touched my heart so much that i felt a surge to fight on. coz sheena, thank you so much for always believing in me. =) you are one of the best things God has ever sent.
yea i received alot other stuff from different people showing their care and concern and i love every single one of u. really do. but whats hurting is.. the people im "closest to".. the ones i see every day.. they kinda dont seem to care. are we used to each other's comfort that we tend to neglect it alrdy? like what i said to michelle today.. "we all have established a friendship.. that it reached to such a level that every praise seems like sarcasm." haha coz we are so close to one another that we dont exactly mind what was said.. but i feel that.. we no longer express our care anymore too. is that the case? i wonder..
anyways i had a ball of a time watching Singapore vs Malaysia semi finals on tv. after cell, sheena and i decided to abandon the plan of going national stadium to catch the match as we believed its sold out. so me, sheena, darren, jem and jovin decided to watch it at their own house. haha as in the seng's house. we had our dinner.. THEN we went to cold storage to buy more stuff. Lays, Rice ball with Peanut and Sesame stuffings in them, japanese nuggets and a Whole Ready-Made Chicken. the best combination ever haha..
we cook them all during the match and had so much fun changing shifts. sheena was the awesome host of being in the kitchen the whole while cooking for us and making my favourite rice balls. then we ate the cooked food on the table like a really happy family. joel came and joined us while we glued on to more action from the match. me and darren screamed like a bunch of monkeys, unable to keep our cool when Lionel Lewis slipped the ball off his hands and into the net.
the whole match we were making alot of noise until the seng's mother came home and was like
"why are you playing in my house?"
and we nervously replied that we were not playing but watching soccer. hahahahaha me and darren was so scared, we kept quiet and giggling throughout. got one point we were standing out, pulling our hair for a wasted opportunity by Indra as we did not want to make anymore noise, the seng's mother spoke to sheena while in her room and me and darren immediately sat down like some guilty kids about to be scolded. haha we were that afraid! so fun..
anyways life is up and down now. miss goh is starting to get really proud of me. which im enjoying every moment and motivating myself to continue to make her proud. i love mrs lai alot and so does she. im still hugging her 5 mins every day haha. but mrs lee hates me. HAHA she keeps throwing sarcastic remarks at me. the whole class can vouch. so does mr yong at times lol
social studies period
mr yong: i have friends who are brash and loud too.. like rachel.
me: did he say my name?
mr yong: yea i said rachel.
me: ok..
mr yong: but they are always the first ones to get married
(whole class goes ohhhhhhh.. hahaha)
me: haha ok..
daniel: ....... jason!
(the whole class roars)
me: WHAT. HIS MY BEST FRIEND LA.
mr yong: thats always where everything starts.
oh ya im the emcee for chinese new year concert. DONT WORRY im the english one. haha i will die trying to be the mandarin emcee. xiangluan is gonna emcee with me on stage which would be a cute sight as we are gonna do really stupid stuff. we are really fighting against the case of cheongsams to be worn and haha. ya.. oh ya im house captain for sultan shoal again. im so happy and honoured to be in it again. apparently i left an impression as one last year so they want me to continue this year. and im glad my speech to sultan shoal members had inspired people and they came talking to me with really really nice comments. thank you so much sec1s. and sec2s and some sec3s. haha
i enjoyed "dinner" with jason, melvin and chun tuan. had alot of laughs, mostly out of borat and teachers with hilarious antics. oh ya the badminton boys are doing well in their e-zone as they are in the top 8 alrdy so i wish them all the best! as for my e-zone, i just pray for the best. even though we lost to tampiness, i believe we can fight on and perform more stunning performances that surprised all our opponents and in the end bringing glory to ourselves. =) lets work hard for tmr's springfield match!
and so my life goes on with alot of stuff to work on. i hope the inner conflicts in netball will be solved. i hope the love will between me and my close friends will surface once more and i hope my walk with God finally takes shape again coz im alwas walking off the path many times. thx for bringing me back.
ps. haha i did some stuff to my blog. BUT I DUNNO HOW TO RESIZE. noob. i spent two hours once just to resize a photo. became the butt of ALL jokes when boon and marr heard of it. de rong in the end did it for me in 2 mins. im THAT pathetic. you guys be good and take care!
8:54 PM
; always and forever.
; always and forever.
>> Saturday, January 27, 2007
the NETBALL post.
im gonna talk alot about netball. this days my temper has been flaring alot coz im getting really annoyed by the fact that when i talk to people nicely, they like to disregard and either ignore it or reply me with a really bad tone. i know why coz im always the clown in their eyes that wouldnt mind what they were saying. you guys are taking advantage of my patience and the last straw has been pulled yty. im fucking annoyed with the way things are going.
my school life is great still coz im always fooling around with my friends with my char siew bao and muffin joke. i dont mind being a lamer as long as it puts smiles on people faces. but you girls, are getting too much. my classmates sometimes do it on me too, the attitude thing, thinking they can vent it on me and i express my frustrations very obvious. but i forgive them as they dont know me well. but u girls are people im seeing very often now due to netball commitments and if i dont settle it, you will see a total different side of me.
im not bitching about my netball girls now coz they are fun people. but maybe this fun has crossed the boundaries of respect and manners without realising. i try my best to keep my cool and not blow my top but i think its time to spare eileen from listening to my rants. she herself also got stuff to say about the team but i wont say it for her. actually there are more people who have something to say. im utterly disappointed about the way things have been going.
training
after running ten rounds round the court, i was first one to reach. then i sat down anad catch my breath
syafiqah: you all just started running?
me: yea.. i finished alrdy.
(boon and rest comes in)
syafiqah: what the hell sia. never wait for us. (referring to herself and nazreen) we always wait for you all then now never wait for us. next time dont wait for you all la! (storms off)
i just kept quiet and smiled to myself. what went through my head was "what? i reach first so i get the scolding? ridiculous behavior.." so i forgot about it
me: eh nazreen. is that your water? (pointing to a ice mountain bottle)
nazreen: (snatches the bottle away. yes, SNATCH. rolled her eyes. REALLY WIDE. uncapped the bottle with the most screwed up face you've ever seen and drink before slamming it on the table)
me: (stared in disbelief and disgust. i looked at boon to make sure its not just me seeing her behaving like that. boon returns with a puzzled look, affirming that she doesnt know whats wrong with nazreen. i waited for ten seconds to make sure she wasnt like joking or anything. but nazreen said nothing. and so..i said this)
me: fucker sia. what kind of fucker would do something like that. walau.. cannot believe it sia. got a fucking problem sia you. fucker (walks off)
that day, was the day i spilled vulgarities. it has been a long time since i last gotten so angry and used the f work in every sentence. im sorry to all that im accounted to as im not suppose to be behaving this way but.. im sorry. she was such a bitch.
whats ironic
doing ball drills
nazreen jumps past me and says : oh rachel! you can have my water alrdy
me: what? thats not the point. (totally thrown off in disgust by the change of behaviour)
end of training
i was tying my shoe lace
nazreen comes over and hugs me: oh rachel i love you. (and runs off)
me: she's sick. two sided.
the seniors and i alrdy had a problem with nazreen. she's evil one moment, rolling her eyes at every one she sees then when she sees we have a problem with that, she says she loves us all of a sudden. then the same cycle happens again. please la dont use the word love readily if u dont mean it. its discriminating.
before trainings
canteen
me: eh so bla bla bla bla (cant rmb what i said but i was asking something)
aisyah and hafizah just looks away
me: attitude sia..
look. i love this two girls coz they are great players and fun at times. but i cant take the sudden mood swings and it happened so many times that i dunno whats the shit going on. i feel really offended. they are all so jumpy when they are in good mood but so damn cold when in bad mood. whatever it is, plz respect the fact that im trying to talk to u guys and the least is reply. at least i tried bonding and u guys shouldnt not respect the person trying to talk to u all. but seriously speaking, the whole team haas a problem with that. except zhao and welly la.
eileen: i feel so lonely..
me: why?
eileen: everytime go for training always only me and you. last time got mariam they all around to play with. now so boring..
me: eh! im not human ah. lonely like im not around like that. haha stupid eileen. aiya our team is very clique-qy so confirm the two of us is not inside as we dont hang out with them alot what..
eileen: sighs.
see.. me and eileen has such talks. its like we go training just for the sake of the tournament. look im not saying we dont have our flaws. right after the netball selection for the team, people like wiwin, eileen and me got into the main seven and twelve rather than the ones that come for training. look im sorry ok but i wasnt the one who choosed the people. why blame us? its not our fault we are qualified for the team. IM NOT THE MOST DESERVING PERSON TO BE ON THE TEAM. I KNOW THAT. i tell my friends that too. i dont go training often and all. but, why did i still make it into the team? could it be im good? no. i think im average coz of the lack of training. could it be we are older so we are in as its our last year? no. welly is playing more than wiwin. or could it be that even though u guys went for training, you guys werent exactly training hard to improve on yourselves? im sorry but to me, thats the one with the highest possibility.
look, its seriously not in our hands on the selection and things going on k. so STOP BLAMING US THAT WE ARE INSIDE. give us attitudes and critics on every single mistake we have made. ask the teachers or something. blame everyone else on what has happened and how unfair it is to you. im damn sorry about it ok. but at the same time ask yourself. why arent you chosen? there must be a reason why they chose us instead of u guys.
seriously, im damn thankful for having a chance to be on the team. coz i seriously dont think i deserve it but i have proven myself enough to show i want to be in it. each time when i train, i try my best to catch up on what i missed out. learned what does coach exactly want out of me. try to adapt to aisyah and zhao ying's playing. i love netball. i love playing with people. the girls in the main 7 are talented people and i really love to play with them. i feel contented just to play netball.
but you guys from what i see, come for training just for the sake of it. alway running after guys that walk past. do unnecessary screams and shouts. i dont have a problem with that actually. coz we are girls and maybe its in our nature. but as long as you got focus the moment you train, i doubt there would be a problem in your growth as a netballer. so what went wrong? how the hell would i know. so dont blame people. and even call coach a chi bai. coz she has her reasons. and she mentioned before that yours was cause of your lousy attitude.
now, why dont i come for training since i love netball. i love to play with people bla bla. it seems ironic right? maybe its because i dont feel part of the team anymore. last year i went for every training. at least most of it. coz i felt really part of the team. boon also. i would enjoy playing netball so much that i pangseh my friends just to be with my seniors and all. my b div last year was so bonded that i cried at my last match coz it seems like the end of this phamilia. maybe why this year's b div, me and eileen dont feel a part of the team might be cause everything is too late to be amended.
me and eileen are the only seniors left. the rest are all sec threes and twos. we tried talking to u guys but sometimes it ends up in vain. you guys are good and comfortable with what you alrdy are so no use breaking it out. i understand that. maybe last year, the b div and c div have bonded within themselves respectively that its quite hard to break. im sorry ok but im trying now. actually i tried last year too. but nvm..
basicly what im trying to say is that i dont feel motivated to go training. but feel ousted sometimes to go for it. after the team selection i walked to nadiah and hafizah and seeked their most honest opinion about it. i asked if they were alright with it coz i totally know three of us dont exactly go for training. and eileen made captain is also a question mark on people's heads. they said they didnt care as theres a reason for the teachers to choose. so i guess its cleared.
back to trainings. the attitude of the people pissing me off. i head alot of discontentment by three such people on the selection and all but i dont intend to address the problem. coz they are just interested on gossiping and backstabbing people. i dont care. then theres this nasha who keeps running after the boys, wasting lots of time in her antics for attention during games and all. which were getting pretty much on everyone's nerves. and then when it comes to the number game
me: (accidentally hits the ball of nasha hands) eh sorry sorry haha
nasha: walau. what sia. what what what (like some wannabe tyrant)
me: (couldnt take her behaviour and thrust my chest against hers to intimidate her) WHAT WHAT WHAT.
then she shut up and we all continued playing. the thing is..stop it la.. im sick of all this crap. why cant we just play properly? stop wasting time. so pissed coz i felt like killing someone. the whole day's drama was getting on my nerves so much and when we had to use the "black or white game" to decide on which 7 vs 7, i had displayed my anger once again. sia la that day was when rachel breaks her silence.
oh ya be ya some. (no 7vs 7)
oh ya be ya some ( still dont have)
oh ya be ya some
oh ya be ya some
oh ya be ya some
it was going nowhere. and i saw a pattern.. nadiah, hafizah and aisyah came out together, all the same, black white black white. it seems like such a familiar trick.
nafisah: aiya faster la! we just choose la
me: no no forget it. might as well the three of them form a team against us la since they alrdy decided so. (in a bosong tone)
then they got the hint and aisyah changed hers. after that she came to me and told me to relax. then i told her i was tired of all this things in netball alrdy and she said sorry. and she talk nicely to me alrdy after that day. haha finally someone who has heard my cries for respect. thank you aisyah.
yty.. tampiness match. fuck it. me and eileen just knew something like that will happen. anyways thx to hafizah for plaiding my hair. really appreciate it. buy u drink next time. first quarter was 4-7 to tampiness. then i think we lead by 6 goals the next quarter. then the third quarter they came back and we leading by two. i felt that f*ed up alrdy coz my team was so afraid of a teamsek case heading our direction where we lost in the end. i promised junting and jiahui that i will do all my best to prevent that from happening. but at the fourth quarter, everything crumbled. we were so pressurized that everything crumbled. we were so demoralised each time they scored a goal and it was just bad. just bad..
i dont wanna blame anyone coz i think we all have a fair share of faults in that quarter. but then.. "she" failed us alot in that quarter. but its alright la.. i hope i can get over it. the umpiring was bad.. it was just bad. there were so many contacts i suffered yet overruled. so many sia.. darren and derong who came to support me saw one such incident. haha then darren was like
umpire run past him
darren: referee kayu. bitch.
umpire stop and look at him.
haha that was funny. but anyways the match hit me like train after it ended. so disturbed and disappointed and pissed. really was.. but i was more of frustrated than sad. hafizah and aisyah had tears welling out in their eyes and my heart goes out to them really. i was soo disappointed. i couldnt talk to my team as the quarter was just so thrashy that i just dont wanna think about it. i walked to derong and darren to vent out my frustrations and despair but also thank them for coming down.
i was soo angry with myself and the rest. i wasnt complacent but i was just pressurized. my team was more pressurized than me. i squatted and covered my face with my uniform reflecting on the match and now how drastic things have changed for us as we were doing great, winning chung cheng and temasek yet now losing to tampiness. de rong and darren kept consoling me and encouraging me not to give up. i kinda have alrdy as.. we still haven fought against tkgs and anglican. they just kept telling me to keep my heads up
then i saw mann and she so could see me gonna cry and all but i said i was ok and ya.. i went back to my team and they didnt say much so neither did i. then i went back to darren and derong as i dont wan them to feel awkward or anything.. so they did all the could to make me happy again. and yea they were successful of coz and i just manage to come out a laugh as i got to hit darren with a bun to vent my frustrations at. but they could tell im not over it.
then i received a message from ******.
"=.= the sec3s are angry with you now coz they cant believe you are still smiling after the match. i dont like it even though they are my peers."
i saw the message and was infuriated. then i yelled: WHO. WHO SAID THAT. (looking at the direction of the person who messaged me" WHO.
person: (used her eyes and rolled to the two person next to her)
and without a doubt, it was the same two shit who was pissed over me and the rest getting into the team. it was the same two that were rude to me in trainings. then immediately i yelled in that direction like a maniac that stunned both derong and darren wondering what was wrong with me. actually the whole team stared at me wondering who im scolding
me: WHAT. TELL IT TO MY FACE LA. WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO. CRY AH? YOU GO PLAY IN THAT MATCH LA IF YOU ARE SO GOOD. KAU. IM SAD OVER THE MATCH TOO K. WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO. HUH. WHAT. MOST I SHOW IM UNHAPPY IN FRONT OF YOU ALL. I CRY NOW LA IF YOU WANT THAT.
then junting and all asked me what happen. and i was still fuming. then the bus came. i called out
me: syafiqah. SYAFIQAH. SYAFIQAH.
(after pretending not to hear, she finally turned back)
me: what was it you were saying? im sad about the match ok. but do i have to show it to you? now thats its over, dont you think im qualified to smile abit?
syafiqah: (nods her head and says ok and walks off pissly)
darren and de rong consoled me once again, while being equally pissed as i was as it was ridiculous on crying over what has happened. and they were the ones busy trying to cheer me up so to hear that i was happy seemed stupid to them. i wasnt able to get over that thing for a long time. i went out with them to suntec and in the best they tried to make me get over it. what de rong said made sense
de rong: since you alrdy know your team is like that, why get bothered over the things they say? she has an attitude problem so ignore her.
me: its hard la. my own teammate saying something like that about me. i think its ridiculous.
de rong: ya so forget about it. not worth getting upset over a person like that.
darren: which one ? is it the monkey face one?
de rong: ya i also think she looks like a monkey
me: =.=
then i called boon and she said the team's bus ride back to school waas very quiet. as in no one spoke. i felt sad after hearing that coz im sure the team is equally disappointed as i was. with that, i hope the next match we will do our best again ok =) then de rong they all brought me to raffles city to queue for the newly opened "donut factory" and we queued for a damn 2 hours in the end. it was damn slow. after a match i stood for 2 hours for this darn donuts. 5pm-7pm. haha but it should be 3 hours. coz sheena was alrdy queing an hour before us and we came to accompany her. so its 4-7pm before we finally got our donuts. we felt like we survived a war
i finally got over the match and the issue of smiling when i ate the first donut. it took away my pain. it was so good.. it was worth the wait. then we walked around before deciding on thai express. the green curry was simply heavenly. when i reach heaven, the first thing i ask God is.. "hey God.. you have green curry in here?" haha joking. but it was really that awesome. then we went esplanade walk walk and finally decided on a spot to savour our donuts. it didnt taste that good anymore. haha maybe coz we were too full.
then we finish a dozen of it and after that i felt really nausea. as we set off for home, we walked to the toilet so i can vomit. i vomitted out chunks of donuts haha. i was grossed out by the sight thus vomitting out more. but sadly only half came out. i still have stuff in my stomach. EEWWW. haha then the trip home, i was just so tired and sick that i kept quiet. darren and de rong were really understanding and so after sending me home, i bath and slept immediately. thx boys.
and i saw what was on shafiqahs blog. it had this really ugly skin. i felt turned off by it. her blog entry says this " and rachel, thanks for the shit yoo told me after the match. you should have told the whole team actually. =.= " well excuse me, the whole team isnt made up of u and your pitiful self denial friend. both of u are in self denial. gee i hate using my blog to say of people like that. but today is the netball post. haizz.. im so sad that it has come to such an end. but if i shut up more, i will get more slanders from not understanding people who thinks im ok with with it.
i dont think what i said to u was shit. i think it made sense. i found it hard to get over that match. but is it wrong of me to laugh about something else? if everyone is like you, wouldnt there ever be a good loser to prove that defeat is sometimes good? fuck off. sheesh. i extend my apologises la really.. im sorry to zhao ying, welly, wiwin, eileen, junting, jiahui, nadiah, hafizah, aisyah and others that maybe at some points in this entry, you guys might be implicated as i used "netball" which may mean you guys. but its only certain people la. i hope that you see this from my point of view and understand what im going through and we all work out something better together. im willing to try again, would u?
tag replies:
to xinyi: hi xinyi! haha thx girl. will fight all the way
to darren: lol.
to derong: we should do that song next time!
to marr: .. thx. i wish you were here.
happier times
at training
break
eileen: eh you wanna eat? (offers me pineapple tarts)
me: ya i want.
eileen: i make one.
me: serious?? haha nice le.
eileen: you believe ah? hahahaha
me: walau! bluff me sia. no wonder this one so nice
eileen: siao. where got people make such things for their friends one. and if i make, i will keep at home give myself.
me: nabe! hahahaha you idiot sia!
at playground
slacking with sheena
me: sia la.. my birthday is on a holiday..
sheena: ah? why?
me: 19 feb what.. chinese new year
sheena: oh.. doesnt exist to me. leap year
1:44 PM
; always and forever.
; always and forever.
>> Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Prime Artist:The Foundations
Why do you build me up (build me up)
Buttercup, baby,
Just to let me down (let me down)
and mess me around
And then worst of all (worst of all)
you never call, baby,
When you say you will (say you will)
but I love you still
I need you (I need you)
more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up)
Buttercup, don't break my heart
"I'll be over at ten", you told me time and again
But you're late, I wait around and then
I run to the door, I can't take any more
It's not you, you let me down again
(Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find
(Hey, hey, hey!) A little time,
and I'll make you mine
(Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home
I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo
Why do you build me up (build me up)
Buttercup, baby,
Just to let me down (let me down)
and mess me around
And then worst of all (worst of all)
you never call, baby,
When you say you will (say you will)
but I love you still
I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up)
Buttercup, don't break my heart
You were my toy but I could be the boy you adore
If you'd just let me know (bah-dah-dah)
Although you're untrue, I'm attracted to you
all the more, Why do I need you so
(Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find
(Hey, hey, hey!) A little time
and I'll make you mine,
(Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home,
I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo
Why do you build me up (build me up)
Buttercup, baby,
Just to let me down (let me down)
and mess me around
And then worst of all (worst of all)
you never call, baby,
When you say you will (say you will)
but I love you still
I need you (I need you)
more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up)
Buttercup, don't break my heart
I-I-I need you-oo-oo more than anyone, baby
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up)
Buttercup, don't break my heart
haha.. still into it. =)
tag replies! :
to shireen: haha of coz u do. and im soooo sure that u are just reading my blog now just to see your name you idiot. haha
to marr: haha you guys ARE stupid lol!
to try: yea.. see you in five years. =)
to darren: those nuts in balls were awesome right! haha we LOVE nuts in balls.
to shawn: haha thx for tagging! play dota again next time =)
to xinyi: haha love you too. its just very random and serena's loss that she doesnt appreciates it. haha she USED TO GO ON THE NET AND CHECK OUT THE HUAN ZHU GE GE'S CHARACTERS! HOW WEIRD IS THAT! hahaha
to beverly: FINALLY you are blogging again. haha i will tag there soon
to tms: hey.. thx. really appreciate it. you too fight on! good luck!
well its netball season! haha NETBALL SEASON. lol i have tanned marks alrdy but.. its all FKING WORTH IT HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. why am i in such a good mood.. haha hmm i wonder why. maybe its coz im still not over the incredible won my team had over temasek secondary? LOL. ok apparently one of their players visit my blog so i wont be too complacent about it but to be praised for my performance despite their defeat, i supposed this girl has sportsmanship in her so i think im able to gloat out loud about the match. sorry. hahaha
well weeks before, i went for the daisy tan carnival and the main 7 played all 7 matches. it was a really screwed up day coz we were winning those we werent suppose to win, losing those that we ought to win and lost the ones that we thought we alrdy won at the last 5 mins but everything went wrong in the end.
commonwealth sec 11-1. lost
hwa chong intl 16-3. won
hillgrove 16-4. won
north vista 10-4. lost
punggol sec 11-7. lost
crescent girls 13-3. won
east spring 8-7. lost
quite crappy results. didnt expect ourselves to do well at all for the upcoming east zone. eileen shared the same thoughts too and expected us to lose every single match we were going to play lol. but the twist of events is very much enjoyable coz for the first match of the tournament, coincidently it was with my dearest friend mann and i wanted it to be as friendly as possible. it was as i didnt retort much during the match and played my own game as much as possible and dont allowing myself to be affected by umpire's decisions and opponent's conduct. all for dear mann. haha but some stuff are unevitable la
after the match eileen was very pissed with her gk as she felt that yee loo was too aggresive and keep pushing her. i understand that but i know how yee loo plays her game so i didnt say much. but that match was great. it was a good fight from both teams. honestly chung cheng didnt play to their most ability that day but im sure they could have won it if they did. but not degrading my team in the process, they did an awesome job too that day with hafizah and nadiah safe guarding our post. the defense was really tight thx to them. attack side got some screwed up moments which im glad was amended on the temasek match.. alot.
well chung cheng led for two quarters and bv kept fighting on.. leading to our first win with a scoreline of 22-16. =) good job girls! chung cheng team was very glamorous in their defeat and im glad im friends with most of them. you guys jia you for the remaining ones k. and of coz.. that day i had a HUGE BOOST. hahahaha because.. the two man of my life currently appeared to give me a plus ten to my strength, my agility and my intelligence so that i will play well. haha as so they proclaim. yea darren and de rong came! my third man which is jason never came but its ok. i dont expect jason they all to come anyway..
haha those two were really sweet. i was just sitting around then wiwin gave me a 7-up and i was like "so nice ah you?" then she said it was the two guys sitting there that gave it to u and my body went all fuzzy again as i got reminded of the angels and mortals game we played in church where gifts turned up unexpectedly in front of you. haha i love u guys and thx for coming. greatly appreciated =)
that day i had a great dinner with eileen, marr, try and boon. had so much laughs as usual and until 9 plus. so i reached home, bath and all and went out again to meet de rong and darren. we rotted at my playground i think. haha we always do. then we had some of the most simple yet delicious dinner ever. we sat at katong mall, the spot where i used to always hang out with joseph and the rest.. we ate cup noodles BUT with canned tuna and pork. hahaha it was nice ok! then we talk alot of shit until 1 plus where jem joined us at my playground again. love you guys
haha then the next day cell was awesome. so much fun coz jason and alicia joined us! haha no more threesome cell of me, sheena and serena again. lol jason ure an idiot still. well whatever it is im glad to have all this people in my life and after cell we had our usual pigging out sessions which means we cook prata and eat it with all sorts of nonsense. like nutella, honey, cheese and did we have garlic? haha oh we had ice cream on top! haha yea.. then we all went to parkway
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOVIN! sorry we all didnt know about it. you have a blessed life ahead okay! ate swensens with michelle. then had lots of roaring moments with jason pms-ing on us. then 3 girls and a pig went off to my void deck where we saw my family one by one at different intervals. best part was when my dad came and gave my ten bucks to buy my friends a drink which i pocketed it immediately mwahaha.
sunday was crazy. day spent with darren and jem and de rong as usual. this time was more crazy coz dunstan and his bro dillon was with us. we ate bak kut teh! so nice. then was the best anad highlight of the day was the awesome durian puffs. gosh it melts in your mouth.. and the brothers and jem went to lan while me, darren and de rong had the most bizarre idea of doing work in the library. haha i tried but it didnt work coz i didnt know how to do my a maths so i gave up. time passed quickly then and de rong was really into his laptop in completing his work.
then when we were done, we went back to smokers paradise to meet jem they all who were lanning and de rong went off home to do his stuff. nerd! then we lan until 10 plus and i realised i need to get back coz i have school the next day.. haha.. i met up with them in the beach at 5am the next day. they ton the whole night. that night i was in my house watching the man u match which pissed me off greatly that they lost. but its ok.. im a good loser so forget about it. so that means i slept at 2am , and woke up at 4.30 am to meet jem and darren. two hours for the whole day where i had temasek in the afternoon!
haha it was crazy but i love the challenge. the thing was i had the best bus trip i ever had in years. darren fetched me to school and it was really crowded and all and there was this guy playing promiscuous girl by nelly furtado and he got really pissed as his a rocker kind of guy and that type of music is definitely not to pleasing to his ears. hahahaha and he went berserk. in the bus he shouted.. "will you please shut that fucking music up?" and everyone was staring at him and i was covering my face.
then again.. he shouted it coz the guy hasnt realised darren was referring to him. darren kept scolding out loud and it was hilarious but the guy didnt stop. then there was this chinese song sang by some act cute singer and it drove him nuts. he was like.."rachel. call my handphone. now" then i was laughing and i just call la. then a underoath screamo song came out and darren raised his phone up to compete with the guy and i couldnt stop laughing as everyone was staring at him. then i quickly hang up and tell darren to forget about it
haha and other stuff la that was damn embarrassing. but it kept me awake. then school went on as normal and i slept in chemistry lesson. my first this year. lol.. anyways that morning i had a big scolding from mr shah and he wanted me and some others to stay back after school till 6 for not attending this ngee ann poly thing then i was so distraught that my face was black the whole day as i walked around looking for mdm yani and haida to plead for me to let mr shah make me go for the temasek match. then during recess i gathered as much courage as possible to call mr shah and apologise. i didnt dare coz he was pretty fierce that morning.
and i talked to ms deepa too while being apologetic and yes! they allowed me to go but i have to stay back another day to make up for it. whatever it is, im GLAD i had gone for the match. i played my best and im sure my team did too. it was 9-4 to temasek in the first half i think, then 12-8 to temasek for second quarter, then of coz the best comeback quarter 17-15 to temasek and the third quarter and the deciding and most kan cheong one ever, 23-22 to bedok view. WHOOHOO! i was still caught in a daze when the whistle was blown as i didnt know what it meant. then i saw mdm yani and the rest screaming thats when i realised we won!
haha awesome feeling. the most amazing one ever. some of them cried after winning the match, i just yelled in truimp like some dude that fought the world war 2 and finally its over. haha.. everyone was really happy. the temasek match was very eventful coz apparently the ah-lian ness in me came out once again. i hurled abit of vulgarities and yelled throughout the whole game to encourage my team coz temasek was being really cocky by going " come on girls! its OUR game. its OUR game. dont lose this. " and i was retorting out loud saying " COME ONE BEDOK VIEW. ITS OUR GAME. ITS BEDOK VIEW'S GAME. WE WONT LOSE THIS" coz its anyone's game! what makes them so sure temasek will win it?
then there was a brawl between aisyah and her gd then i kinda was pissed about as i witnessed the whole thing. so i stood up for her when aisyah said it out. haha it was 2v1 on the gd who looked like this basketballer. then the game turned pretty ra - ra so i decided to step up my game. i never liked body contact in a netball game coz its a bit disgusting as two players sweat mix together and all and its eew where certain odour can be smelt hahaha. but i heck it la at third quarter. i defended my player so tight that i didnt care if her boobs were touching my back. glad it paid off =)
i looked at the score and i was sitting down with hafizah and nadiah during the 4th quarter break and i asked them.. "nadiah. how? two points. you think we can?" and she answered back immediately "can..". haha that was all i needed. someone who feels like fighting. and im sure everyone else was also gonna give it all out. and so we chiong all the way. hafizah and her gs was just yelling throughout the whole match cheering for their respective teams which was hilarious. i clenched my fist each time we scored. it was so close that the two ball lead was maintained all the way to the last 5 mins where it became one goal lead. then i intercepted a ball outside our semi circle and passed it to aisyah where she brought us to a draw with temasek.
then it was their centre pass and i was so afraid that the vicious cycle was going to be played and so our team really needed to get the ball from the opponent. then welly did the honours and grabbed the ball from her opponent and passed to me and i bring it to eileen where she did the finishing blow of putting us in a lead, the first time in the whole game, into 23-22. awesome stuff. then we defended our lead as much as possible and hooray! temasek was left disappointed and some of them cried. but bv couldnt care less as we won and we all certainly had a smile throughout the bus ride and back to school.
in the bus
me: WHOO! WE WON. ahahaha! eh.. come to think of it ah.. we are quite a bunch of assholes.
nadiah: why? (hafizah listening too)
me: put ourselves in their position now. if lets say we have been leading for 3 quarters, leading an average of 4 goals per quarter and then suddenly losing without a hint at the last goal by one freaking point. wouldnt we feel like complete f*ckers now?
hafizah: oh.. ya hor..
me: so that means..
hafizah and me: THEY FEEL LIKE COMPLETE F*CKERS NOW HAHAHAHAHA
ok we are NOT turning complacent. we are NOT turning cocky. its just that we are happy that we put up a good fight. and temasek crumbling at the last moment showed that they should have never underestimated us. even though bedok view doesnt sound as intimidating as tkgs and anglican, im sure whatever it is, we shouldnt be thrown off. well we will fight on and haha.. good day to all! meeting sheena for dinner now. ciao
12:28 PM
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; always and forever.
>> Thursday, January 18, 2007
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MY SONG OF THE MONTH HAHA
love fool is awesome too!
haha i love music.
11:51 PM
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>> Friday, January 12, 2007
tag replies! :
to de rong: haha you then crazy k.. you are crazy for eating like 10 eggs a week lol
to vai: see! always so sweet. love you loads too
to luan: HAHAHA CONGRATS BOOBY GIRL. i love you too la
to Tyre: haha oh ok
to marr: HAHAHAHAHA another victim
to nana: hehe me <3 you too
to shireen: you then nb la. everytime come my blog just to see your name only. dont have then go. you go die la minah! hahahaha
to jem.s: err.. ok..
to rin: hahaha i haven play with my band yet la! im IMAGINING
to hanies: yes hanies! you guys are the faves!
to de rong: i alrdy gave you lol! passion ~
to Abby: haha you finally made it stupid girl LOL
to darren: try next year darren. lol!
haha life's been a roller coaster this days.. i have turned over a new leaf =)...NOT.
haha i had so much fun this days i dunno where to start.. erm ok school's on again and even though i still feel blue about it, im quite satisfied with my performance in school as i have managed to attend school for the whole week! serena skipped two days and i must hand it to her. oh ya xiang luan gave me a BIG bolster as my belated christmas present which i tugged around the whole day in school, causing lots of stares at me carrying it. haha attention seeker lol
i solved 4 a maths question!! WHOOOOO! 4 LE! NO JOKE OK! last year, it took me 6 months to actually start listening in a maths class must less solve one question and this year im off to a good start! haha coz i got new strategy to keep myself awake alrdy..
Rachel's Sleeping Logic
due to the fact that im insomiac, i have decided that i will wake up at 4.30am every morning now and cook breakfast and all until its time to school. when i reach home, (which most probably be 6 or 7 plus) i will do my homework and all and be really tired and sleep real early like 11! compared to the usual 2am. and the cycle repeats as i wake up 4.30 again!
explanation: because the more you sleep, the more you wanna sleep. the lesser u sleep, the lesser u feel like sleeping! thats why pigs sleep such long hours as they have nothing to do and sleeping was all that they could have done thus they keep doing it that it turns to an habit. lol..
anyways i just reached home from a long chinese day from school and had a lot of fun talking with jason and playing snap and the "abc" game. haha his such a funny guy and i absolutely love him to bits. melvin should seriously start liking another girl.. im starting to worry for him and his endless love for one girl who's already very much in love with someone else hahaha.. melvin is such a stalker LOL.
the past few days was very NETBALL coz of combust where i had to help out at the netball booth for the sec 1 cca option day. to say the truth, the main reason i actually go there is cause of my favourite seniors in the world and they would be coming to oversee the thing. haha and yes, we had dinner almost every night. sarpinos, banquet and mcdonalds take consisted of 38 PACKETS OF SAUCES WE USED FOR OUR MEALS. we are the fattest netballers you ever seen. and yes, im fat. i put on alot of weight for this december holidays and im currently making up for it by training alot with the team now.
back to dinner with netballers. haha its sooooo fun and crazy that within 5 mins, lots and LOTS of things can happen and we will just keep laughing non stop. haha things like..
jia hui: breewe werree lleee drreew
me, eileen and shireen: huh..? what did she say?
marr: eh seriously u know. people with braces should have subtitles when they talk. you absolutely have no idea what they are talking about!
......
jiahui: eh the dessert store halal or not?
rachel: halal la.. dessert le..
eileen: yala! i saw this indian man buying also
marr: HAHAHA AN INDIAN MAN DOES NOT MAKE HIM A MUSLIM
......
eileen: its nice! try!
jiahui: eeee dont try. taste very salty and sour
marr: hmm. i dunno who to trust
jiahui: really! taste very salty and sour.. like sweat.
me and everyone else: HAHAHA WHAT?
......
me: eh i take photo of you! *flash
marr: eh.. cannot take photo in the night..
me: why? got some story right?
marr: ya.. cannot take photo in the night you know.. especially when in a vehicle (very serious tone)
me and the girls waiting what she's gonna say next..
marr: cannot take photos.. if not got flash then got accident.
me annd the girls: WALAU CHEH. WE THOUGHT WHAT. GOT GHOST STORY..
......
shirren: eh not bad what the drink.. where got salty and sour..
jiahui: aiya you minah what. minahs everytime lick their boyfriend one
all of us: HAHAHA
and ya there were many other stuff la that we talked about. like how people from other countries think their thumbs are gods and they wroship their thumb haha.. its just so funny hanging out with them la. in anyways im pleased to be having fun with them again and i hope to see you guys soon =)
oh ya! mann message me yty exclaiming about e-zone. i had a strong feeling this days that her school will be in the same group as mine. hahaa true enough, she messaged me that bedok view and chung cheng are INDEED in the same group. but then.. to our disappointed and devastation especially to my fellow teammates.. we are met with very strong opposition. zz
tanjong katong girls
anglican high
temasek sec
tampines sec
chung cheng high
springfield
haizz.. so darn dead.. but never mind lets keep our chins up. im sure something miraculous will happen.. haha.. i have been rushing homework like siao too this days and literature has been killing me. but the lessons is just so funny!
half way talking through the joy luck club..
zhi hao: TAKE MY BREAST!
rach: omg what did u just say hahaha? did he just say take my breast?
ms liew: *rolling her eyes
daniel: haha we are re enacting macbeth!
serena laughing like siao liao as we were all shocked to here that
ms liew: its take my milk for galls la
zhi hao: oh ya hor. TAKE MY MILK FOR GALLS
......
ms liew: she was a good wife that was committed to serving her husband
zhi hao: yes, she STRIPPED OFF HER CLOTHES for him
serena bursting into laughters again to be after being shocked again
me: hahaha what the hell
5 mins later..
ms liew: ya and then she
zhi hao: PAGE 55! SEE! "I TAKE OFF MY GOWN BUT HE DIDNT REACT" she stripped for him!
serena laughed out loud again to be appalled by his behaviour
me: eh today you horny ah! its very weird to hear all this from you sia haha
ms liew: ya he just received his sexual awakening..
the bunch of us goes ha ha ha ha
so fun right.. and ms tan is just simply WEIRD. i want you back mrs lai. theres a reason why i spent 5 mins a every day hugging you okays. you better appeal to get back to 4e1 with us. stupid woman.. well life's fun and i gotta meet the boys soon. haha haven seen them for days! wonder how they are lol. ok take care all
5:16 PM
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; always and forever.
>> Monday, January 01, 2007
dreaded day of my life. its the FIRST OF 2007! omg time really flies. dont really remember much on what happened before haha.. but ok la.. dun ruin the new year's spirit for u guys. haha HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!! MAY 2007 BE NOTHING BUT BLESSINGS ON YOU GUYS MY DEAR FRIENDS!
haha ok now for tag replies:
to darren: haha darren, ego is what BlingedOut is made out of what..
to jem.S: WILL YOU STOP SAYING SUCH THINGS OF ME IN PUBLIC. AND NOW IN MY BLOG? YOU WANNA DIE AH STUPID BOY
to MaidenBoy: haha hi shawn =) maiden boy because of crystal maiden right.. lol
to jem and darren: CAN U TWO DONT BE SO GAY ON MY TAGBOARD
to marr: hahahahahahahahahahaha ok
to vai: daniel vai vai vai vai vai ~ love u too!
to Abby: hahaha hello stupid lady! i dont think i saw u at all this year la. ahha how to give u booby award then lol
to xinyi: hello! ok link liao
to shawn: haha hi again!
okies thx for tagging guys =)
wow.. 2006 has ended.. what a ride.. well my annual awards is coming up soon to highlight those that contributed to the fun in my life so stay tuned. meanwhile, check out this song i just wrote in 30 mins when i was practising on my guitar and just came up with tabs for it. maybe i can actually record it some day but for now, im still fixing on the melody. its a slow start before the drums and electric guitar hype it up turning to catchy tune. here's the lyrics
Already Left Alone by Rachel Ng
Take me away from here
Only known to me and you
Far from the sights of those
Whom said we can't make it through
Pick me up where i last fall
Hold me tight never let me go
This is strange because i just know
You already left me here alone
(drums go pa pa pa pa then its electric solo and all)
I should have known from the start
And walk away when i had the chance
But now its just too late
My heart's broken and it can't be mended
I'm still living in the past
Memories i can't let go
And who's to take the blame
It doesn't matter anymore ~ ~
Hey hey hey ~
it doesnt matter anymore ~
hey hey hey ~
yea it doesn't matter anymore
chorus
i dont care anymore
you aint here all the time
i dont care anymore
you left me all alone
disclaimer: it does not show what im feeling ok
i like slow and emo songs but as its my first, i want it to be more catchy. well anyways photobucket is not working so this year i can't work with photoshop and all that so i guess its gonna be another boring annual awards. well anyways, good luck to all nominees! =)trust me, u REALLY get something
welcome welcome welcome! to the most anticipated event in the year... NOT. haha thats so borat.. ok i hope u guys had a great new year but lets get down to business alright. first up would be
Movie of the Year
nominees: green mile ( i watch only this year lol )
click
mission impossible III
scoop
the pink panther
this is pretty hard coz.. yea. haha its hard.. but then again we meed a winner so its..
CLICK forever and ever
Male Lead of the Year
nominees: adam sandler
tom hanks
leonardo dicarpio
ian mackellen
andy lau
they are all so awesome and i just love every single one of them. but i really have admired
LEONARDO DICAPRIO for the longest time for being so wonderful in acting
Female Lead of the Year
(cancelled)
because i cant think of much! i nv watch much movies this year man..
FAVOURTITE TV SERIES:
nominees: prison break
america's next top model cycle 6
survivor: cooks island
the L word
lost
this shows rocks! but then the only one that kept me glued to youtube HAS to be..
SURVIVOR: COOKS ISLAND no doubt. its the best
FAVOURITE CHARACTER/PERSON:
nominees: Yul Kwon ( Survivor )
Oscar aka Ozzy ( Survivor )
Katherine Moennig ( the L word )
Joanie ( AMTD )
Micheal Scofield ( Prison Break )
i love them all! they are such great people and definitely the major reasons why i watch those shows! but the winner.. darn its hard.. but it shall be sweet girl
JOANIE =) daniel cher! you agree right!
FAVOURITE BAND OF THE YEAR
nominees: my chemical romance
all american rejects
radiohead
paramore
the cranberries
haiyo.. this one hard also.. but then.. i have always been a true blue
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE fan. and they still rock
FAVOURITE SONG OF THE YEAR:
nominees: i don't love you ( my chemical romance )
creep ( radiohead )
linger ( the cranberries )
like a stone ( audioslave )
the scientist ( coldplay )
lol.. this songs are some time ago but only this year i actually appreciate it. and so this is difficult as they are good songs but it has to be..
CREEP ( radiohead )
MALE HOTTIE OF THE YEAR:
nominees: takeshi kaneshiro
daniel wu
wang lee hom
cristiano ronaldo
johnathan leong ( haha )
the last one is for fun and for the sake of bev and me. lol la.. well anyways, my heart only belongs to one person after so long and he is
DANIEL WU haha as always
FEMALE HOTTIE OF THE YEAR:
nominees: kate hudson
kate beckinsale
jessica alba
kate moennig
angelina jolie
haha i wonder who. this is a really good list huh? but sorry.. we have a new winner this year!
KATE HUDSON haha our new hottie!
..........................................
THE COUPLE OF THE YEAR ( sorry i dont have photos of them! )
nominees: serena and weekian
mariam and keith
desebelle and darren
shearen and david
mann and ivan
hahaha this is a good list too. the thing is that, they are all still on solid state but the only one that prevailed the curse of my gamblings definitely is
MARIAM AND KEITH haha
MY MAN OF THE YEAR
nominees: jason lian
tong de rong
daniel vai
darren tan
jeremy seng
the most challenging one ever! they ALL have been great guys. sorry but i dont have a single photo of u jason but i still love u k. so guys.. the winner is..
it will break his heart if he didnt win. haha i love u jem and u won!
MY ANGEL OF THE YEAR
nominees: serena, michelle, xiangluan and rach yee
de rong
daniel vai
sheena seng
collin see
i love every single of them and it doesnt matter who wins coz in my heart u all have a special place. =) but the winner this year, will have to be my dearest
TONG DE RONG
BOOBY AWARD OF THE YEAR
nominees: xiangluan
xin yi
mariam
shireen (silicon paddings hahaha )
beverly
hahahah im so gonna die for putting this award up. but haha the winner will be my dearest
XIANG LUAN hahaha have u seen it? lol!
=) ok all! here's my annual awards! its a bit rush and short coz im pretty busy this days. whatever it is, i love every single one of u and hope a blessed new year be on u!
to my netballers,
my peer leaders,
my bv friends,
my BlingedOUT,
my band,
my church friends,
my childhood friends
and many many many other lovely people,
THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING 2006 SO BEAUTIFUL AND MEMORABLE FOR ME!
1:28 PM
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