nothing will be the same /now that You save me

>> Saturday, August 27, 2005

OMG. ITS OFFICIAL! HAHAHAHAHA MICHELLE KUNARDI HAS LOST HER FIRST KISS!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA..to daryl. ^^ aww! so lucky..daryl is a good guy to lose it to. hahahahaha! now she can walk around and tell ppl and its like "WOW!" haha..nola.today after school. we all decided to stay back to do the costume for be yourself/aces/teacher's daY concert which as a class we'll be wearing our prettiful class t shirt and yala. make a costume out of recycled stuff. its perfect! haha well for me. i went to my briefing for the finals of the singing competition. haha yes..i got in! haha but walau! ms leong ask me to change song le. T.T im like..serious? she say ni bu zai by wang lee hom was too modern and want me to get something with more feelings? wth..haha so now im finding a song which is the karaoke version so i can sing for the finals..haizz..i guess im singing wei yi bah..dunno le..let me know any songs which suit me k! urgently need advise.
~ haha ~
so yeah..its friday 3 oclock. wanna support then come k? haha but i know as long as my good frens come,its good enough. LOL well after the briefin, i went to help out in de costume. its great! haha very tired after helping. haha..i hate melvin. his such a slacker. jason is such a pig. T.T but cant help it. SERENA IS USELESS. haha..i think we got chance to win le..haha well after tat, me, jason, mich k, maybelle and daryl ate in school. den we talk to melvin who was training hard in badminton training..haha den when we all going to take 12 to play bowling in katon g coz me and mich k got inter house bowling compeition next tuesday so we wanna practice. den irritaing melvin appeared and ran after us and just nice i ran for the bus den all of us got in! haha..den went to play bowling. we played one game only and we played crap like. haha maybelle won. T.T embarrassing to keep losing to her. haha well melvin hungry so we all wait for him. i had red bean soup! haha..den we wanted to eat cheesecake in mph to rot den i suggested to go church first. den ya we went..haha played kaboodl,watched swat 3 which looked cool in, and played jenga truth or dare version!!!!HAHAHAHAHAHA
~ lalala ~
tats when everything happen! the worst i got was to sit on melvin's lap till my next turn. haha his fingers were touching my butt a lil but i nv say. hahahaha horny! den LOL. mich k got to kiss daryl la! hahahaha her first! although its on de cheeks. hahaha still cool..den it was damn nervewrecking. SHE WAS GONNA KISS MY DARYL!! haha nola. jessie's. lol why did i even mention her? hahaha den melvin got the "RUB NOSES WITH A PLAYER" AND HAHAHAHAHA. lol lol lol..drew lots and it turned out to be *gleefully* MAYBELLE! hahahahahaha. happiest day of melvin's life. hahaha den they did la! it was so funny and cute. HAHA STUPID PIG! (JASON) WHO ASK U NV COME! MISS OUT SO MANY THINGS! HAHAHA..jason left early to go auntie's hs. den yala..we all went dinner. but melvin got wedding dinner so he n daryl cha bo. so me,mich k and serena la. hahahaha de loserrs. oh ya! jason told me bout this " nightmare" he got which was really funny..
one day me,maybelle,jason,melvin,junxian and daryl were having fun in a place which looked like a chalet. den suddenly maybelle got lost while looking for a toilet. we all spent went looking for her. den after two days, Grace ke called(why is she in his dream?? hahaha secrect admirer) jason say wad dunno la.sister in california..den grace was crying saying this " omg! jason..i just read the news. serena died! *sob sob*..den jason told the guys and they all wept. i wasnt around coz i was apparently still looking for maybelle. haha den guess wad. LOL. de next moment, me n maybelle appeared with KFC. LOL LOL LOL...wad a "nightmare"?? hahaha LOL! i kept roaring at the ending. jason thinks too much about food la..haha well things are cool. hope i do well in de finals. well tmr got cell and service and preparation for happy happy carnival. hahaha COME MY STALL! shooting stars! k ciaoz!

10:54 AM
; always and forever.

>> Friday, August 26, 2005

heylow! haha life's been great like a rollercoaster. tuesday i went for netball..FINALLY. haha it was great! fun. haha tat day after school, netball starts at 3. ate with jason they all until 2.30 den hang around with track ppl like maybelle den go for netball. haha it was damn funny la..i love shireen and mariam. they crack me up lots. really..eileen is still my idol though. hahaha i was listening to my mp3 ah, stupid monkey shireen kicked the ball anyhow den it deflected and the moment i turn, no time to react, bloodied ball whack me HARD in de chest la! T.T ooowww..haha den shireen went crazy and so were the rest..haha den yala..it was soo funny..i kept laughin..ms yani came n wanted to talk to me privately den i was like, " WADD?? HUH?? DUN SACK MARIAM!!" HAHAHA den mariam was shock la den gave me tat "oie. dun talk nonsense if not no tau heuy for u" look. hahaha..it was great. after tat. omg. first time. me,only 2 went out with seniors for makan in market..haha mariam was supposed to treat me tau huey. but too bad it closed so we all ate bread instead. fun still..eileen still owe me truffle. HAHAHA eileen kept saying her cookin very nice and all den..

me: u sure nice?
eileen: very nice very nice!
mariam: ah dun bluff. u keep saying very nice very nice, tat time i eat ur nasi lemak n agar agar ah, walau. the agar agar taste like rubber sia! imagine a bicycle wheels and very colourful and u're eating tat. tat was wad it taste like!
me: *roared with laughter
eileen: orh tat time the colour part i do one. de rubber part my partner do
all: ya right..

haha..

~ wednesday ~
haha it was my audition day. haha i sang ni bu zai by wang lee hom. i got positive remarks..they said i sang well..but i was SHAKIN. couldnt sing well..but they said its nice. daryl being the perfect gentlement came n shook my hands congratulating me when the results are not even out? haha junxian gave the nicest remark saying i sounded like the radio. very smooth. haha my good frens jason,mich k n maybelle supported me. THANK YOU!! haha they scream like wad. oh ya and xin yi n ama n rest..haha and des. thx guys. haha it was great..i hope i get in..although its intimidating..but i'll leave it to God. but i still think i sang badly..its CHINESE. i didnt even know wad i was singing!! haha it was like..i said LOTS of wrong words? haha..nvm.. after tat heavy melvin joined us. walau his audition i scream like wad for him..den my one he nv come at all. walau..bias..i hate tat stupid cat. i will pluck his nails out of the paws. haha den we all went pp coz jason was gonna buy his adidas perfume tat ran out. haha looked for it and stupid cat kept insisting tat adidas wont sell it but im like,"how can adidas not sell its own product in its own shop?" haha den we ignored him and went there. there it was! loserr. haha we saw cassandra see the actress in her shop. coooll. spent 10mins stalkin her. hahaha nola..den go home lor..
~ thursday ~
im having a cough after eating 2 big packs of lays. maybelle also having..but i dunno de reason. haha we in church now. shes coughin like wad. me,jason n her went there today coz got filming. those 2 last min join. today's filming is about kung fu soccer. remake of shaolin soccer the show..haha cool. jason was retarded. so was maybelle. haha but we couldnt finish it by today so we're doing it next week i guess. haha helped out in happy happy carnival stuff. they doing hw. i just saw swat 3. so cool! well i need to watch the makings. haha ciaoz

8:49 AM
; always and forever.

>> Tuesday, August 23, 2005

ì cant wAit to go home!!! T.T my lays potato chips are waiting for me..T.T haha dad bought 2 big packets for me. today was fun. school usual. just tat ms sharifah wasnt in school. ms heng still rocks. after maths which was last period, we stayed back coz got peer leader briefing. haha it was cool. theres these 180 bucks camp going on during september hols. erm.. haizz.. haha there are 27 peer leaders but only 14 could go..i, maybelle, amalina, xl, hadi n fadhli got in. melvin n jason did not. we were like aww man. den nvm la, one dun go, all dun go. haha got one vacancy at tat time. den melvin n jason n 2 others drew lots and lucky melvin! he got it! haha but still jason cant go den no use la. den we all told ms heng we dun wanna go alrdy den she was like really angry. coz she chose us n we just dun go liddat..haizz..so we go la. and hope in de meantime dat got space for jason. just nice amalina goin "overseas" den one more spot. den one more also..cant remember. so got 2 spaces! haha den got 3 who want to go including jason so draw lots again la. its like 2 out of 3 ppl? den if jason get the only "no", walau we tell him to nv buy 4D alrdy la!
~ lol ~
haha den guess wad. HE GOT IT! haha cool huh.. so yala.. me n maybelle were praying damn hard n heart was beating damn fast? haha well so..we all got in! haha den after tat we went to the chinese competition which daryl, junxian n melvin will sing. haha cool den we go there. they took some time. melvin at first like enthu den later dun wanna join as he got cold feet. but haha he did eventually. junxian sing damn well le! just realise. haha daryl also. but they two sing together..quite weird le.. haha so after the results were out, we all went to market n eat. waited DAMN long for our food? but haha it was quite funny. we were making fun of jason as pork is not suppose to touch any plates and he was eating from a muslim store? and others la..maybelle was having mood swing. haha shes ignoring me coz yty i said tat a little girl was prettier than her. haha she took it seriously and said i hurt her feelings..LOL. lamerr. mp3 ONCE again had problems so i had to go jo's hs and format it. haha so now im here! cant wait to eat my potato chips..T.T haha she is the worst host in de world. i reach barely an hour n she was bathing n now eating dinner? haha haven spent 5 mins with her! haha and she dismissed my complain as "tats y im comfortable with u!" haha wad she means is she doesnt have to entertain me as we're best friends for donkey years and theres no need for formal treatment. haha wadever den.. well i guess im going for camp. 3 days less to be with her. n of coz my dearest imee n shearen. haha its ok..will meet! the 4 days. MUST. haha k see ya

10:15 AM
; always and forever.

>> Monday, August 22, 2005

heylow! well things are going pretty well..on wednesday i nv go school..coz lazy to go..den spend my day at home haha..i watched team america! tat puppet show but it really rocked. just tat its RA..haha but its nice la..very vulgar and all..couldnt wait to lend it to imee. ^^ coz i wan her aroused. haha well after tat i went to mum's stall coz..yes she's lookin for a lawyer. haha turns out she found the wrong one..laughed my head silly..well after tat on thurday..cant exactly remember..oh ya! filming. haha finally saw min jiang kuey. he and imee looks so cute together! haha..i think they really match. really. just tat i hope his pai kia image wont land imee in trouble la..other than tat. haha imee, u have my nod. ^^ well after so long..we 4 are acing again. filming was funny..swat 3.stupid heavy jason n melvin followed serena to make her ez link. haha den yala..me n jo stayed back after filming den i walk her to bus stop den..yala..we talked alot..haizz..
~ friday ~
friday ah..quite a bad day..as in..ya..well after school me n my frens had to go many places..go cut hair, collect class tee shirt in hougang..haha well we were eating in school den i just finished. check my phone n realise jo had been trying to call me..i called her back and she was rushing me to go parkway. im like, "look im going out with my frens. u dun just call me and want me in parkway rightaway. im not a dog." den turns out tat shearen wants me there..haizz..look shear. no point crying over such things ok? we are all still around. its up to u if u want to cherish it. we tried alot. we will still. but u r the one to decide if u wanna make it a happy or sad ending. we cant do much..sheesh..den i rushed there la..den talk to her..den went mph..den yala..jo got to go cell,i got to meet my frens as we are all cutting hair together..so go off la..i went to siglap centre to meet them. haha we spent alot of time there..coz me,xiangluan n serena are cutting wad..me n luan first. den lady felt really lucky to have me and kept repeating coz i was chatting with her n makin her laugh whereas luan keep asking questions n demands about the way her hair is supposed to be cut. haha anyways i stick to the same hair style. guys, i WONT change my trademark fringe. hehe..luan copied nana's fringe whereas nana cut her fringe shorter. haha at least luan dun look bald now..well daryl was cute. jason slept. mich k keep looking around. and it cost 18 bucks eventually.
~ hougang ~
haha den it was 4 plus. mich k n xl went off. me,nana,daryl n jason took a cab to hougang. melvin was tired after training so he nv join us. our shirts rocked. just tat the eyes a lil problem but still..haha theshirt is nice to wear. i wore it for saturday's cell. saturday morning i went to imee's hs coz they pratising their dance n i wanted to talk to shearen..den i left awhile coz i need to go church to help out in happy happy carnival! haha serena also. den me n her made this dartboard which looks like a pizza. nice! hehe den cell group la. its our last coz our grp is too big..and jason,much k n melvin will be joining us alrdy so theres two grps now. haha well its great..wad else..cell was good..den today is sunday! haha i went for service. nana had bbq yty so i didnt expect her to come. called her hs,mum picked up and said she was sleeping. its ok,i went to service. haha sat next to suvanna and haha she was crazy. den worship la..when service finish, i turn around n nana face pop out! haha she said she woke up when i called. aww..must be wanna see me too much right?? haha. well after tat we went tim centre for classes. sec 1 n 2s played this really cute "alien" game n taboo. we won! haha but i must do forfeit which apparently and thankfully ppl forgot about it. coz i was a total retarded person during the alien game.
~ T.T ~
im not going church anymore. i have made a huge fool of myself. T.T haizz..haha well went to anne's class. it was really quiet. so was anne..but it was ok la. at least God's message is still there..i was seperated from nana. haha den after anne's class,nana's one was not done so i went in. then i listened la and we all prayed for dearest eunice as shes going to canada for something. for 4 MONTHS!! T.T i seriously almost cried. gonna miss her lots. God bless u always!! den after nana's class, we ate lunch. den it was funny. den the guys gonna play lan so i join them. nana went home. it was me,andy,jason lim,jeremy n jovin. haha we played cs n dotA. lol! its pretty cool. first time play dotA but its ok. not for jason, i think we lost la..haha den now im here in red hot cafe. going to meet jo now as she finishin her youth service alrdy. den later dinner with the girls. haha ciaoz

6:48 AM
; always and forever.

>> Tuesday, August 16, 2005

eh! i get full score with my own strength k. all is nv cheat k. all legally get one hor..anyways sunday was fantastic. morning went service with serena. den met up with them at katong..it was really fun. took a bus to orchard lido coz the threatre totally rocks to the core? haha decided to watch on "the maid". before tat we smuggled food into the threatre. it was such a AAAAAHHHHHH T.T show. i regreted watching it. haha it had a good storyline la. not a bad film. just tat i freaked out alor during the show and kept screaming n keep tugging his shirt n cover my face under it. haha so funny..den the show some part damn scary den stupid she go push me to freak me out more..walau i practically shouted "WALAU" at her and ppl at front row were staring at me. haha..anyways after tat we walked to far east where they ate ice cream n look for neo print shop. haha toilet first actually..pratically walked the WHOLE of it 3 TIMES. just to find these places and to shop for t shirts tat have same design so all wear..haha great day. the neoprints turned out great. really liked them. den after tat we ate dinner at hans. haha berry berry good time den it was going 7 so we decided to chao fast and go marina south to see the fireworks exhibition there. mrt there n walked all the way. actually we just followed the spot lights and haha..there we are!
~ cOlOuRfUl ~
eh sia la..the fireworks were awesome! it started at 8. den it was beautiful. we didnt know where it was and when it appeared,we all ran towards its direction! haha so funny..den run run until we were able to see it clearer. haha beautiful! after tat we all walk to bus stop. waited. waited. waited. zzzz..WALAU.NO BUS WAS GONNA ALIGHT THERE LA. KAU. haha..den we walk la..den the mrt ah,there was a HUGE jam sia! u must be going,"mrt got jam one meh?" haha as in there were ALOT of ppl. so SOME GENIUS made a suggestion to WALK from MARINA BAY to CHINATOWN. T.T haizz..it was a really long walk. haha..very fun though..ahaha when alight liao, walked home n it was totally. totally freaky..keep turnin back. coz..THE MAID. T.T reach home pretty late..haha..but it was a fun day. not for the others though as they got scoldings from parents..haha..well no pain, no gain. ^^ well monday was wad ah..so DID not wanna go school. i was still freaking out..it was damn scary? i go bath all tat but i dun dare to look at the mirror long as i afraid i might see somethin..haiz..scaring myself only. well went school. haha fun..melvin is still as heavy as ever. den after school we went church. and...JASON N MICH K RECEIVED CHRIST! woohoo! haha..great huh. they're saved! well we played alot..real fun. taboo rox. kaboodl rox. everything rocks. haha den it was fun..but mich has second tots la..sad but God will be with her. this is only her first stage! haha i passed mine n im sure she will too. well after it was ofcoz..today~!
~ today! ~
feel realy guilty now for not going netball for 5 weeks in a row..haizz mariam called but i couldnt answer her..haizz going church..well school was cool. OMG. I DIDNT SLEEP AT ALL. haha well ms heng broke my heart when she scolded her. T.T yala! i did not wish to talk to her lor but den..haizz..m fave teacher wad..must talk wad..den i think she stressed out la..didnt mean to scold me. HAHA comfortin myself. wellafter the period we stayed back and talk to her la..i say she broke my heart den she say "got meh?? i dun rmb saying anythin wad." den i was like HOW CHLD U NOT RMB WAD U SAID!! haha but nvm..well she leaked some information about the PEER LEADER selection. HAHAHAHAHA. MUAHAHAHAHA. HEHEHEHEHE. YAHHHHOOOO! haha..life's great. well i cant say who got in..coz my fave teacher ask us to kepp quiet wad..haha so keep lor! hahaha..alrights. gtg now..today had been great too. ok see ya

10:11 PM
; always and forever.

>> Sunday, August 14, 2005

haha..im officially jobless..psychotic boss annoyed n disgusted me to the point tat i decided to stay away from him..thursday was fun. school was usual..after tat me n maybelle n rach yee took our napha..maybelle took alrdy but she wanted a better score..walau. we got the malay teacher who was -totally- bochap. as in..he dun mind at all la..like not serious or strict. unlike mr saidil. although its not fair to others but..wad to do..just like tat, maybelle n i got perfect 30. haha thx to this bochap teacher..but actually i alrdy got it..haha lucky maybelle. but its ok..we'll keep trainin and earn it with our own strength right..haha God has been nice..i feel much better after tat major incident..melvin did not turn up for school so we decided to pay him a visit. he had lung infection which sounded serious but he was ok actually..lol..we visited it..before tat we looked for mrs kua who is STILL HOLDING ON TO MY HP UP TO NOW. wth..its either she dun have it n shes busy or i cant find her..sheesh. oh yA! i went for peer leader interview. whew..it was ok..i was quite confident about it but i hope they wont think im cocky about it la..they asked questions tat i expected. all were from ms yani..we did a survey first..
this was wad happened:

ms yani: plz come to the front
(chairs placed in front)
*walked forward. all sat on the chair.
ms yani: did we ask u to sit?
*stood up quickly
ms yani: rachel,why cant i see ur socks at all?
rachel aka me: oh. haha it always go down.
ms yani: why is ur t shirt tucked out?
rachel: hehe..always come out.
ms yani: ahhhh..still say no need interview ah?
-flashback..- i said this "waa! ms yani n ms heng! i know u two like me alot la..one my netball teacher,one my maths..aiya..no need interview la..we always smile to each other one..just give me the job k? i promise u i will be good. ^^ ms yani replied "why must u be so special tat u no need interview??"
-back to present situation-
rachel: hehe..i wasnt refering to grooming wad..
*tucks in shirt n accidentally shows folded skirt
ms yani: ah rachel. fold skirt somemore..how low u wan it to be??
rachel: hehe..
ms yani: all of u turn around.
*looks around..ms heng just sit there n give me tat *haha rachel got busted look*
ms yani: ok..rachel. do u think grooming is impt?
rachel: bla bla bla bla..

i'll stop here. its toooo long. haha but it was great n funny..anyways there was netball..but i felt tat visitin melvin was more..u noe..so i went there with jason n maybelle n mich k..haha met him den looked around his hs..he was ok..his hs is big. we were thinkin of havin our chalet there..haha..but nvm. den we all went for a longgg walk to this coffeeshop n ate dinner..it was so nice..coz we were rotting n biting straws after our meal and just..ya..den after like 40mins den we cant rot anymore so we go home..
~ friday ~
friday morning was horribleee..coz thursday was lost and it was really exciting..so i couldnt wake myself up..but i did..n stupid maybelle was late for bus so went school alone..had a hard time keeping myself awake..den english time i just slept. haha..cant believe it but i did..den felt so shiok during chinese..anyways after school we decided to save money by eating at school..after tat we plan for a long time..den decided to go church have fun..we brought durian puffs which were great. den spend the whole afternoon there..xl went off..den same group of ppl..jason,melvin,maybelle,mich k n me were rotting liao..we played taboon kaboodl! which was a new game. haha really nice n funny..jason n collin was hilarious. serious. muscle ache all over as i kept laughing..den mum called me to go her shop as she misses me den i decided to be good n go meet her when the guys went for dinner. i went there..my mum was delighted to see me..haha could feel it..so was i..i was like. omg. long time nv eat her food. i hardly eat alot for dinner den when i went her stall. i ate a plate of rice with dishes i put in..i felt tat it was NOT ENOUGH. it was soo delicious. really..i couldnt get enough of it..it was really nice..i kept eating..haha den soon dad fetched us home..talked at 10 in conference with melvin and gang. den hs phone no bat..so i hang up first..den after awhile i asked mel how was it and he called me. den i called him back and realised they didnt manage to decided on anythin. -expected-..haha den i dunno la. i chatted with him up till very late..
~ today! ~
today i woke up in peace..no more job. felt tat i have alot of time..den read magazine..den watched the old films i acted in..trying to sort all of them out as i realised i have messed all of them up..it was really nice watching them..rmb all the fun stuff while filming it..haha..den went to eat lunch with collin. WALAU. HE WAS 30 MINS LATE. sheesh. but its ok..den go back church..played kaboodl den it was time for cell..today's sharing was good. everyone did well..haha..den left with maybelle..hope she comes more often..now dat i have no job..although i dun have alot of money..i feel tat i have spent more time with God n my frens..which is so much more meaningful then money as i have plenty chance to do so when im older..now i shld just play..so yala..actually now we are all suppose to be in orchard eating dinner and catching a 9oclock film which shld be the maid..haha..but melvin had to gofor a dinner so its cancelled..but theres many chance. mum keep callin me to go her shop..walau irritatin..so after this im going..well i guess i better be now. bb

10:04 AM
; always and forever.

>> Thursday, August 11, 2005

hey. tis is to the person who just send me tat email. u know who you are. i didnt reply coz i thought it was going nowhere..thought tat u didnt care. but after reading tat email i cried lots. coz maybe it really was an misunderstandin. im sorry..give me some time to be able to talk to u again ok? i know u care now. im sorry. btw..the last part of my previous post about the backstab and the hope will die part..haha it wasnt refering to u. sorry btw..bye

3:24 AM
; always and forever.

i wont pretend tat im very happy now coz im not. i wont pretend im havin a great life now coz im not. i just wanna ran away..

yty was a great day..totally..but great things come to an end easily..mornining met up with the gang..jason,mel n mich k..they were 15mins late..we met in mcds for breakfast. just nice..it was 11..den maybelle came later..breakfast was funny..as in..laughed alot..maybelle den came..acted like a stalker when she saw her primary school best fren..we all kept laughin..den we wanted to watch a movie but cant decide or where n which threatre to go..den we went to the bus stop and check..den i blurted out "why dun we go kbox?". den it was so sudden. all of us decided to go kbox..haha..it was a pubic holiday so its damn ex..$14.50 and no meal but its ok..we used it to 4..den had alot of fun..really..we whld squeeze the person by putting all our body weight on him or her whenever he or her gives attitude or talk about flowers. haha which was me all the time..den squash her until she cant breathes. haha its damn fun..after 4 we went to parkway walk walk..its national day! den we all had the same mini converse shoe. they got theirs alrdy den i brought mine. real cute..we all den went food court to eat..my mee rebus was really spicy and alot..but haha i finished it..den went mph to buy scoopz. melvin's one was really nice. made me go crazy..his flavour was durian. haha it tasted exactly like durian? lol. den we decided to walk to east coast and see fireworks lor..ya we walked there den it was cool..it was 7 plus alrdy n we decided to settle down in one place..they were many ppl too wanting to see..we sat down n waited and talked..haha real nice n cosy..den the fireworks started! real real nice. beautiful..if only we went nearer..haha..den finish alrdy we walk to this TurQiose or something n had a drink there..it was 9 plus alrdy and melvin had to go..so we walk la..all of us reach my hs first n i wanted to go play lan but the ppl were shoving me to the lift. haha they wanted me to go home..so i go la..
~ haizz.. ~
yty was great..i called my best fren n talked here and there..den call again at intervals..everything worked out until today..haizz..somethin major happened today..but im not gonna say..i really freaked out over it actually..not like ppl care..told them n they gave chill response..its like if it happened to u,im so sure u wun react so cool. precisely it didnt happen to u tats y u so cool with it..sheez..my life kinda suck..theres no one to rely on when there's trouble..i will end off here den..

thx alot..for teachin me a lesson..u taught me how life is always changin and ppl closest to u can turn out to be the worst enemies in ur life..they devastates u make it seem like they did nothing..den say stupid things like much thought shouldnt be spared to them as we shld pay our attention to God..i think its an excuse for all the things they have done. they hurt someone,den say ppl shouldnt take it to heart. God shld be taken.perfect excuse. thx. i learn this alrdy. ure such a trash pot. i really wished i nv knew u. i hope she backstabs u multiply times one day till u cant even inhale the air God has given u and u know wat is retribution den. i hope wadeva u done to me be done to u too. so u noe how much pain u have inflicted on others. in fact me. ure biasness n excuses are too absurd. i seriously detest u now. if u think using God's name can be used as an excuse for all u've done,ure wrong. tats y i say dun u dare use God as it doesnt link. u hurt me,den u say listen to God. it all doesnt link. God is just an excuse for u to get out of wad u done. i seriously hope u get backstab by her and regret all u had done coz u ditched me for another trash pot. i hope u will stay in dilema n confusion of ur dentity and not know who ure frens are. coz u just threw away a fren who was going to be faithful n loyal to u throughout for ur obsession. u disgust me as much as u disappoint me. i hope u die.

3:15 AM
; always and forever.

>> Tuesday, August 09, 2005

status: digesting
song of the moment: PIECES!!!! AHHH
fave person: ppl i hung out with just now..name jo,abby,imee n shear.
reason: haha had so much laughs.
phrase of the day: my bestie n i are drifting apart. haizz..

saturday's cell was meaningful..really..got hooked onto this new song by james blunt. titled you're beautiful. haha pretty nice..and from tat day onwards i suddenly keep hearing it..haha coincidence huh..well ya saturday's cell had impact. but i gave a pretty crap sermon..haha must be coz of beverly!! haha she was breakin my thoughts throughout..we keep laughing n she keeps tellin funny n lame stuff to me..walau..den i didnt had time to finish it too..haha crappy life..sunday ah..i wont go to details..haha..night time had dinner with imee n shearen as usual..went to their church..waited outside n they were 12 mins late. haha i kept lookin at the clock..went to eat beef hor fun! haha try new stuff..well this week is bak kut teh! haha..cool. we had lots of laughs..like a bunch of drunk teenagers and were singing around..den stupid imee pushed me into this pub when a man opened the main door..i freaked out la. i was sooo afraid i happened to get embraced by him. imee n i were clueless as in why i didnt resort to use violence on her after the incident..haha well it was pretty cool..made lots of racist jokes..haha den went pp..i wanted to be a loner n read gossip girls after they left. wth..tough luck. i sat down n read for barely 1min, the damn announcement said "dear customers,mph is going to close in 15mins. plz make ur payment at the cashier." and the lights off. pissed. haha well after tat i left la. i was crossing the traffic when i saw from the side of my left eye a familiar face..leaving hastily..i turned n saw mr saidil dragging ms liew acorss the road..haha sweet but..try harder. haha trying to get away from not letting me know..i KNOW he KNOWS tat i saw him..so he gave a lil smile while draggin..haha..poor guy..gets criticised by malays for his convertions..ppl r ignorin him now..but..for love..n for God. its nothin..haha
~ today sucked in school ~
hey! its the nations bday tmr..haha i love singapore..but today celebrations sucked..no one sang..only me..even my buddies were not..haiyo..den it was the annual community singing competition which totally sucked..i felt hopeless..this year was bad. reall bad. no matter how well ppl said ive done, i felt it was a piece of crap n de worse onstage thing i ever done. sheesz. i hate my song leaders. i love most. i hate the..augh. they were so enthu went everything gone ok..today when everything was wrong coz we only had one practice and we dunno wad to do at all and they decided to sit out? f la. i was so fing pissed. im gonna stare at them from now on. "SEC 2 SONG LEADERS PLEASE COME OUT" and only 11 out of 17 came out. know why? they backed out n didnt wanted to be embarrassed. f u bitches. sheesz. at least try? do this together? what kind of -unleaderised- leadership is tat! crap. i also felt crap. wadeva i told them to do,they didnt do it..so wad the heck..made a fool out of ourselves..at least i was singing on de mike with aidil..his great..haizz..last yr was great. this yr has gone bad bad bad..very bad. but anyways..couldnt wait for the minutes on stage which seems like hours to finish..so it was off to ava room..fun over there..video was funny..sec 2 has lots of horny boys who yank after naked kids shown on de movie which was about singapore at its past..wads the deal? i see my baby bro running around with his pants off all de time..haha..life was fun den..lots happen next..lazy to go to detail..
~ wonka! ~
haha took a tazi to meet up with shearen n imee..jo had to go to the embassy with her mum n abby was with her..we went lido den to buy tix first..den met up with those 2 at taka to eat..den jo n her mum went off..we 4 decided to walk to far east n take neos..haha took alot..i took solos with imee too! haha love her tons. shearen u too. n abby. haha den cool la..movie was 4.15 and we took as much time as possible to spend it until jo comes..den she did la..and we all brought friendship bands btw..me n shearen brought the blue one..den decided tat all of us shld get one..den me,shear,imee,abby,jo n donna shall buy a purple one. just buy for donna who wasnt with us..haha so me n shear have two of it! i hang them at my ankle..fun ah..we watched charlie and the chocolate factory..i think its a good film. haha it was nice..den yala..jo had to rush off after it..den abby too..so they went off together..talked lots with shear n imee..took bus..den came to lan shop la..haha feel the urge to play cs liao. haha buh bye

12:11 PM
; always and forever.

>> Sunday, August 07, 2005

hillsongs hillsongs hillsongs hillsongs! hahahaha

THEY ROCK.

haha one whole week nv blog..LOTS happened. cant rmb wat la..sunday work..dinner with them..haha ya..monday cant rmb le..tuesday i think mahjong..wednesday had 2.4km although i was having gastric..tahan..worse timing..tried too hard..which led to me being very sick de next day..after school went jo hs..played tennis..den went home at 9.30.so late? coz i was vomitting like crazy..im really sorry..for vomitting in her hs all tat..i couldnt play tennis at all as my stomach hurts..stubborn me..den went back her hs..rest/nap for awhile..den 8 oclock..i woke up. *boom* went to her toilet and vomitted..hell lot..my whole lunch came out..partially digested..haizz..den went back to the room..felt horrible still..5mins..*boom* vomitted again. this went on for an hour..torturing..untill jo's mum was freakin out..so i called my dad..den to the clinic..i was give a jab..i vomitted in de car also..dad freaked out too..luckily got plastic bag..den yala..i had a jab on my butt..haha den cramps were piercing me..appears tat i had acute bla bla..gastric den i run and play somemore..tats y i vomit..but after reaching home..it was worst..i stopped vomiting..but seems like the "stuff" all wanna come out the other way..i had diarrhoea none stop..haizz..couldnt sleep at all till 4..coz i keep waking up to go shit..T.T horrible day it was..den mc the next day..it was my peer leader interview day!! i did not wanna go hospital coz of it..haizz depress..den anyways lucky i got another day to do it..den my closest pals in school were great..haha these ppl rocked my life..they showed up in my hs after the interview with a cake and card..they made a difference in my life..special thanks to:

maybelle
jason
melvin
michelle k

haha..well i was so touched by them..thx guys! huggies..den went back to school on friday..haha missed it alot..den WHOOOHOOOO! friday was yty. WHHOOOOHOOOO! after school was 5 item. i couldnt take part but i did pull ups..22 pull ups not bad for someone with acute gastric..haizz..den yala..have to do the rest next week..im shooo short. i can jump up to 174 only? walau. to get A is 177? im soo far from it. walau..cannot get perfect 30 alrdy..haizz..depression. and the darn sit n reach. no matter how hard i STRETCH THOSE SHORT HANDS, i keep getting 46cm! last yr also! but now. im 14!! IM STUCK AT THIS HEIGHT. AUGH. assholic. nvm..den after tat we all go home coz FESTIVAL OF PRAISE CONCERT WAS AT 7.30!! hahaha..went home to prepare..tired alrdy..anyways i got this new pair of fila platform shoes..cost 75bucks but boss sold them to me at 40..haha whoohoo..they look nice..pink. haha..well went to church after done. met up with them. den found out there's no such thing as tickets for festival of praise. we must queue and the time was alrdy 6plus? the concert starts at 7.30? so we can expect a HUGE crowd alrdy? augh..anyways i saw the new movie which had me. haha it was quite funny..den it was off to queue alrdy la..
~ WHOOOHOOO ~
met maybelle outside. we all walk to take 16. woah! we reach and we saw a HUGE line. we dun even noe where the queue starts! walau..den thank God..haha quite unfair but..yala..Ellery saw his fren n we were like "eh hi! ya bla bla bla.." haha and we are in! LOL LOL LOL. shooo bad. ppl queue like long ago n we just barge in. hahaha i felt horrible. but anyways..we went in quite soon..i pity those behind..haha de place was great. hillsongs was GREAT. AAAHHH..haha we rocked alot. delirious was like..erm we dunno their songs? so just clap..haha but hillsongs rock! de whole thing rock coz of them! HILLSONGS ROCK!!! haha it was cool..jump like wad..shout like wad..went totally crazy. we were screaming..btw we sat behind the stage..haha but it was quite ok..not like it sucks tat we only see their butts..hillsongs lead singer keep turning around to talk to us..she rocks! so nice..haha den we had lots of fun screaming..had lotsa fun..was jumpng n den i saw one damn familiar face..haha de ku ku one which keeps shaking her head to get rid of the fringe in front of her head..haha. LOL. i was correct. it was imee. LOL LOL. den it was so recognisable from den on..next to her was shearen. her hair was like..haha damn obvious its shearen's,,den jo's frissy hair..haha got it. spot on. the 3 were like woodened block. haha fun. den wave here n there..they spot me also..so fun liao..well it was great..den went back with maybelle after the concert..it rocked alot..hillsongs did. tonight n tmr still have..but too bad la..no one wanna go liao..damn wasted..they say tiring..haha see la..hillsongs le! so rare to see them..haha..well someone pang seh me for her frens..haha i workin now..anyways later got cell..cant wait to tell collin wad he missed..haha k see ya

3:40 AM
; always and forever.

>> Monday, August 01, 2005

status: lookin for new songs
song of the moment: behind these hazel eyes
fave person of de moment: mummy..
reason: i miss her..
phrase of the day: tennis rocks

im addicted to tennis i guess..my wrist hurts like wad but wadeva..yty was the publicity for happy happy carnival. walau..we all nv manage to sell much tickets..me, maybelle, daryl n jason were going door to door and we sold miserable amounts..haizz well its ok. jason cracked me up alot..he was soo cute..keep on laughing at jonathan's wig which made him hungry as it was like curled macaroni..haha..den kept laughing at jean when her hair stood when she held the balloon..haha he was soo cute! keep laughing n laughing..den he went to amuse himself further by taking one balloon n try it on me n maybelle's hair..haha den during the parade,there was this balloon sculpter. haha she came to me n say wanna make a hat for me den. den jason wanted a sword. the lady was busy makin things for the other kids n BIG jason kept u noe.."my sword..she forget my sword.." haha soo cute. den i went to ask for it lor. he was soooo cute! he like a big kid sia!keep smiling n grining tat he has a sword lor! walau..funny sia..daryl as usual played it cool. den maybelle was like melting after getting a flower..haha..WALAU. MAYBELLE. U DAMN WAD SIA. haha got this hyper and cute old lady was jumping around during the parade to burst the bubbles tat were blown n maybelle was also. den got this big bubble, both of them run after it n maybelle looked like she shoved the old lady away to grab it la! walau..my god. siao sia maybelle..haha..den jason got a gun also. hahahaha but too bad he had to give it away coz got some kid tat want..
~ lalala ~
den after the carnival i was supposed to work. but haha they all la.so i cancel it..we went for dinner in katong laksa..maybelle went home liao coz mummy whld be angry..den we all went bayshore to gamble all night long wth mich k. she damn flirt sia!! i hate her alrdy. HUH. she got high for chinese i treat her drink n all. soo proud of her. treat her so well. den HOW DARE SHE. everytime ah. she always call or msg de guys to ask where we r and im always like. "why call u guys instead of me??" walau..always sia. den jason n daryl keep laughing la..jason keep on call mich a flirt also..haha jokingly..coz its a fact wad. tat mich always talk to the guys..haiyo! shearen,do something about her. haha..den i won 20cents after everything..haha coz i lost alot..stupid jason won 4 bucks. hahaha den poor daryl n mich k..we played dai di in aerobics room where i was the big winner n won 70cents coz 1 rd 10cents..tat means u win 30cents each rd. den it was 9 oclock so we got play mahjong. the stakes were so much higher. haha..walau the last rd ah. 10.40 liao ah..kau. we raise the stakes to 40cents. den michelle ah! got the Gang. Gang right, we raise the stakes to twice the amount. den nervous n exciting sia!! tat means 80cents a rd! win $2.40! WALAU. haha den jason won it. we were screaming n all..haha..next time we play,its gonna be higher..haha then jason send me to bus stop. jason soo nice..den daryl had to go home. but i board the bus first. den yala..reach home..msg jo..den sleep lor..haha cant wait for tonight's dinner. bye bye

2:46 AM
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